lonely girl..

i not understand what am i thinking now and actually wat i want now..is makes me feel sooo lonely when the day have passs...finally i already can makes it dont want to think too much and care so much d...its makes me so tired and its makes me hate myself to be like this...i really cant understand who i am actually...

anyway i wont feel so upset de...i know i am always lonely girl and nobody wont takes me as their best friends at all....i am really worry my two best collegues will hate me and wont talk with me anymore...i damn hate it....

feel so headache and dont know want to do what to avoid myself to be unhappy...i want to have my own vacations with my friends and hope i will be happy everytime of every second of the time not matter in what situation...

feelings

i just only a little girl who are only know how to keep feelings..

i really cant understand to those people who are really know how to express they feelings out without care whether is hurt that person heart anot..i really cant understand...i am feel so bad to my ownself..anyway today i just realize that actually i just a a girl who with the childish minded..

and just only know how to act cute and cool all the time..or just pretend as a person who are keep the feelings all the time...i am really feel sooo lonely and dont know how to express out my feelings actually..i feel sooo lonely enough...i reallly dont know how to maintain my feelings now..i cant calm myself down...actually i just know how to hide my feelings and dont want to makes other ppl dissapointed..i like this job soo much but i oso a human..

how come ppl just dont care wat i am thinking and how come i just keep silent all the time when its have somethings makes me not happy..i really dont want to give other ppl a burden..

i really dont want to makes other ppl feel so unhappy when working time..

i just only can hide my feelings all the time...thats is only the way i can keep silent all the time and just pretend happy enough..

i am really sooo tired with all the arguments d...its makes me hurt enough..

i am really so faint down with all kind of this noisy and nossense around me..i just hope that everythings will be cool down and just hope everyone will happy...the way to do it..just kjeep my own as CLOWN..