my first day of college..

2day is my first day of orientation...just feel everything was change after i step to segi college on the first day..no more uniform,no more school shoes...more freedom and can meet alot of friends...feel so happy but still have something i feel so upset coz i still cant control my hot tempered but me feel not satisfied..bcoz of my hot tempered i hv make my family fight to each other and hv make my grandmom feel i crazy...y i cant control it...i really want to change my hot tempered..i dun hope it keep on make me hate by others...its ady enough for me to become a bad person with the bad attitude..and crazy...and everything thats control me from small to big...i dunwan to hate by other ppl anymore..i dunwan to make my grandmom upset and cry..i dunwan to make my siblings fight to each other..i dunwan to make my parents so upset bcoz of me..i dunwan to really dunwan hate by others ppl..just to satisfied my witness....its ady enough for me to get hurt and ady enough for other ppl to get hurt bcoz of me....i hate myself damn much......someone have told me b4 need to be a ourselve..duneven try to be other....i still rmb the words that he gv a advice to me...i really feel so glateful to noe he and thankssssss very much but i still cant do it coz that was not me at all...now i just hope everything evil things just disapperead around me..i dunwan to get control by it anymore from today onwards...i hate it damn much.....after the day today i hv see alot of different in my life usually from starting to the end...now i can feel that my ambition hv achieve to in college..but i still need to achieve my study as well to prove that Allycia Wong Shu Rong is not a failure person but is a berjaya ppl.........i can do it.......^^