the things that i hv 2 start over

2day i feel very sad coz i fight wit my bf n cousin..

i really not understand y everytime i want 2 let them feel happy n feel that i is a gud girl..

they sure think de bad things of me..or sure think i mad..

y they cant ever accept me 2 be a gud girl...

when i make joke wit my cousin,he feel that i annoying..n hate de way how i act..

when i take good of them but they say i hv something wrg in my mind..

when i say something gud things 2 them but they cant ever accept it...

i really not understand each person mind n wat they thinking of me..

y so many things around me is weird..

i want 2 change my attitude n everything that make ppl sad..

i want 2 change but need a time 2 change....

i want to let everyone understand me...

dis world ppl is weird..

de things that i cant accept...

in dis world no such things is perfect such as love, friendship,person,things..
in my life oni got sadness n anger...
from small i got alot of pressure..although so many ppl very take care of me but i still feel very sad coz my atttitude n oso bcoz 2 many ppl look gud after me..make me feel so stress...
i really not understand y other ppl parents can talk nicely 2 their children but y my parents cant...they always fight 2 each other..until wan 2 break up..everytime they sure fight 2 each other not matter wat is happening around them..everytime they fight 2 each other i will feel very scared n feel like wan run out from my house but i noe i cant do it...
they make me very stress..not happy..frustrated...n scare...
bcoz of that my attitude become more worse..thats y i become very bad..n everyday keep on scold by my father n beat by he..but i still can tahan n always remind me that dont feel angry 2 he coz that is my fault..but i cant do..i still feel very angry 2 he..so i just always try 2 hide myself in room n cry..then talk 2 god 2 let me hv a wonderful life wit my family...everytime if i feel sad or happy..i sure will share my story wit my god coz i cant share my story wit anyone...
when i grow up...i become not obedient 2 my parents n always do a wrg things 2 make them feel sad..but not my fault actually coz is them make me become like dis..if from smaller they didnt everyday fight wit each other infront of me n keep on lepas geram 2 me..i sure will not become like dis....i feel very suffer althought i is normal person n hv a alot of ppl sayang me..i still rmb when my parents almost wan 2 break up that time...i feel very scared until cant pay attention 2 my study...then got one teacher come 2 ask me then bring me go 2 see counselor teacher...
when i was form 2...i become hardworking coz i get into de last classs..2 uum..so i work harder 2 prove 2 my parents that i am clever n not de person who is stupid n cant do anyhthing else...
finally i berjaya 2 do it..n prove taht i am smart girl 2 anyone..from that day onwards they feel pround 2 me..i feel very happy..but when i get pmr result 5b 2c..make me feel very dissapointed althought i work hard...but i didnt gv up..i still study hard 2 get a gud result in form 4 till form 5...but after i shift 2 shah alam...i become more lazy n cant pay attetion 2 my study..
i ady change 7 school from smalll until i go 2 secondary schoool...till i change 2 shah alam school i feel become more lazy liao..i think that after i change 2 shah alam school..i will become better but after i shift 2 here..i become more lazy...i cant pay attettion 2 study...keep on ponteng school n didnt go 4 tuition...n hv no any best frenz...i make them hate me n misunderstood me....i feeel very lonely n hate myself n school...i wish that faster finish study n go out 2 work but i noe outside life is very though so i need 2 finish my study n get a gud result in spm..then oni can going out 2 work..but i really cant tahan anymore..when i shift 2 here my father become so hot tempered coz he need 2 share money wit my uncle 2 open shop althought he not like my uncle...when de shop start open he become so hot tempered n everyday keep on lepas geram 2 me...coz i make he more stress...i noe i cant let he feel more sad bcoz of my problem again but i really dunno how 2 control it..my parents keep on force me 2 study but i cant ever pay attetttion 2 my study at all althought spm still got three weeks..de most sda things is i feel that my grandmom feel more hate me n cant accept wat i do...i noe i ady hurt so many ppl around me..i noe i cant do it n cant let them feel sad bcoz of me..but everytime i wan 2 do 2de right things sure got something that make them cant understand me..actually i wan become a gud,obedient,hardworking,n let everyone proud of me...but i really not understand y i cant do it..y i cant gud 2 them..or talk nicely 2 them..y i cant hv someone 2 share my story wit them..y i cant become a gud girl like others..y i cant y icant y i cant y i cant y i cant..........................i feel very stress....i feel that no one in dis world can understand me but oni can seee my bad side....
i try 2 2 do it...i hv one hobby is dance..but i cant learn it coz i need 2 finish study first..dance can make me become more happy..everytime i saw they dance..i will feel very happy n jeolous 2 them...i oso hv one ambition is become hair stylist...i feel very happy when help ppl 2 cut hair,wash hair,design hair...n meet alot of ppl...i feel happy when enter each competttion n hair show....i feel happy when enter into hair industry..n can enter each hair show competttion...i very like it althought they looook down on dis hair industry..n they mind feel not gud..but i still like it very much...i plan 2 become hair stylist in my future....i wan let everyone know that allycia wong shu rong is a famous hair stylist....i wan let everyone look up 2 hair industry..i wan let my parents proud 2 me...i wan let my lovely grandmom feel happy,proud,n look up 2 me n hair industry...i wan 2 change my attttitude...i wan 2 change everythings n start a new life...althought everyone look down me..hate me..not understand me...but i still wan 2 prove 2 everyone.................lastly i hope everyone gv comment n share ur story 2 me...THANKS...............BYE BYE LUV U MUAKSSSSSSSSSSSSS

the things that i cant understand

sometime i really not understand y people must be until so sombong...if someone make a mistakes v hv 2 gv their chance 2 change..y cant even gv a chance 2 let them chance de...i hv lie 2 one person but i keep on explaining 2 he..he oso dunwan 2 heard wat i say...i feel very angry 2 that kind of person..ppl just oni wan 2 make fun n i ady sorry 2 that person but he still cant even forgive me at all....that person really make me so angry..if someone ady try 2 explain n say sorry 2 u then nvm..la but he cant even forgive ppl 2 cheat he de...like my aunt not like 2 lie ppl but when someone cheat her..she still not care n forgive that person..mah!!!y dis kind of ppl cant do ittttttttttttttttt

no mood 2 talk anymore..bye

he smile make me feel so happy..

in my life hv nothing special things that i can share...

but after i meet he..he let me know that in dis world no such dis things is perfect even frienship n love..i learn that v should be pround 2 ourself..n dun even try 2 be other person that u cant even be..i very thanks 2 he 2 make me pround 2 myself n dont look down on myself...

somemore de way how he talk wit me n look at me..make me feel vey happy without any pressure...he let my life more meaningful wit happinesss...

not even that...i promise 2 myself that from now onwards i will learn 2 love myself n learn how 2 love other ppl too....but de most sad things is he stay too far from me n cant even look at he 4 a few minutes..i hope that one day we will work 2gether n spend my rest time wit he....

hehheheheheheh..tata gudbye my LOVE!!!!

no such things that can make me fun...

2day i feel very sienzz coz nth 2 do..

my life always going very boring n din hv anything special things that i wan 2 do..

haizz...feel that 2moro wan going out wit bf 2 jusco but hv 2 wait he 2 confirm..n feel that saturday wan going out wit cousin n my frenz 2 sunway but hv 2 wait till saturday..

isssh..spm is coming soon...liao..need do alot of preparation..n get ready 4 spm......lo

but i hv no mood n lazy 2 study...leh!!somemore i just think that 2 pass my bm n english oni n get certificate..its ok..liao so make me until so lazy 2 study but i still can do it de..hhehehehee

2day i really tired d so hv 2 sleep early..

gudnite everyone..muakssss..luv u@.@