the only things that can make me happy and not care anythings which around me..is only be ur side and dont hope to care anythings else my life..i like ur smile,the way u look into my eye..and everythings bout ur..i just hope that can stay with u 4ever and ever..:)
i hate myself to be like this..keep on feel bad about other ppl..actually all because of my fault..anyway i hate oso hate myself to angry to someone else when saw he keep on make fool on other girl..i hate this kind of feelings and dont hope to keep it to me..coz its will affect me relationship with that person one day..so i really dont hope that i have feelings to anyone that i want..just want to stay happy and dont want to think too much..i admire he for such a long time..there are nothings can make me feel gv up to he..everytime saw into he eye feel i want to be he side every minute of my life..
everytime saw he talk with me..feel want to spend the rest of my life with he..
everytime saw he sit with me..just want to stop my life to stay with he..
i really dont know how to gv up on he..but i understand thats just for a few minutes..actually is not a longer period for me to stay with he when the time is came:(
there are impossible for me to get together with he..but i really thankss to god to let me can met he again after one year..and can work with he again..when i saw he come back d..i feel very happy because thats let me know that i still have a chance to saw he again..lucky on the help of god..i can work with he..friends with he..talk with he..eat with he..fetch by he...and do alot of things that we can share to each other...sms with he..call by he..thankssssssss the thousand of love to let me stay with he at every moment of my life..i feel that my family are right..they keep on say that i will feel very happy not matter how he scold me..and everythings is about he..i will feel in this world is my..
i scared if one day he like another girl and ingnore me...
or he really already make decision to leave this company to work in another company..
then he will never ever come back d...after that we cannot meet again...
then HOW???i will really scared if i already not working here anymore..would i still can share everythings with he like how its happen now...
today i already gv up on he and i wont think about he anymore form now onwards
its already enough for me to get hurt.i just want to gv up on he and wont think anything about he anymore...he smile..he joke..he laughter..and everything about he not matter whats is happening..i just want to forget it and wont care about he anymore..
i already get hurt and the time is get to end at this moment..
i am so stupid...keep on hurt by men...not matter how i unhappy..happy or anything else..
he wont care me at all...he wont turn he head to look me at all...
coz i am so young and he is older..he just take me as collegues or friends...
so y i must keep on think about he and want he fall love to me....y am i so stupid to think the impossible things that i ady face so many times...
actually i am so care that he will see how rude am i
but today i not scared anymore..today i just be brave and show to he that i not like other girl who are so pretty with the good looking...anyway i just want to be myself..
