Thursday, June 30, 2011

July

July would be my tougher month and is my new month starting a new job with my aunt in a Rt Bakery which work as a cashier .. there are the first time i working in the bakery .. dont know how was the feel like .. although i have work as a cashier before .. but i knew that there sure will be very hard and i willing to learn it somemore i gonna face it in the future too as i taking my course as a hotel management .. k now i am gonna start today the first july of i am sick for 2 days d and today wake up late make me skip class for computer essential .. feel abit dissapointed because i am promise to myself i need to attend each of the classes but today i have not going for the class just because i am late and i was miss one chapter which i gonna have to catch up Gambateh :) .. so sad .. :( anyway assigment dateline such as a academic english and computer essential is getting closer and closer .. need to spend alot of time in my assignment tim .. anyway there are too many exersice that have to finish too .. why la its hapening in this month because this month is my birthday .. hoho ..

i gonna to clb my birthday on 10th of july in Aeon Jusco Bukit Tinggi with all my beloved friends but i still havent get my salary yet .. damn to my previous employer .. actually can get by yesterday but with the many of compliment .. and bla bla bla say that i only can get my salary by today .. damn anyway lucky one of my collegues have help me .. suppose to say damn to the boss .. hate it ~~~ like to potong and sekat ppl gaji when the people are gonna to resign ..

there are too much things that need to worries and do .. i gonna be very very rushing .. just hope that everything will go smoothly by this month .. wont have any fighting , arguments or unlucky .. pls god .. amitoufu .. hopefully .. but since i dont think so its a good starter for me "choi , touchwood " because i just skip my class but its just normal la .. heehe .. but things have come to me last minutes .. although it was .. but its okie lucky and thanks to god somethings that have go smoothly for me and feel like in every problem sure got the solutions in finally .. thanks god .. i love u .. amitoufu .. ahaahaha

anyway wishes my family , lovely grandmom and me myself will have a prosperous month and in every month .. everything will went smoothly .. ommg today gonna be my tired day .. woops ..><

Friday, June 3, 2011

i am soo sad :(

i am just so hate myself too be emotional ...

so wish i could just pretend to laugh as how ppl laugh .. and dont care about anything ..but i just cant understand why i cant do it .. why why why should i care too much ..

i just want to be ordinary and have a simple life as i can but i cant .. i just cant control my emotional .. can i just stop it and start a new life .. just dont want to change the reality of me

i just cant cry and just cant stoping to think about u ... teach me how to change change change ..


i am full of confusing and wanted to cry and shout as loud as i can but i cant do it .. just cant .. hope can just become as strong as i can but i cant just sooo weak make me wanted someone that could hear me hug me .. i am verry weak and no more energy to continue my life .. how could i just become strong .. just the alcohol can make me drunk drunk drunk and make me have a enery to start again my life .. haizzzz just want to stop everything and start back ... teach me how could i just pretend there are nothing happen while i still watch it .. i am super duper headache now ... grrrrrrrrrrrrr ... just hope god couldd save me ..