he make me feel so nice n sad....

i dunno how 2 start our relationship..and how 2 end up our relationship...
i feel very hurt n feel so lonely....
actually i and he already break up and become friends but how come he act like have nothing was happening and still can always play,laugh and kidding wit me...i know we still are friends we can play,kidding and take care each other as a friends but i dun hope that only..i wan couple wit he like hold hand,hug,call he everynite and kiss 2 each otherbut i already feel ok even we already break up but he still take good care of me like how we couple tat time....i really cant understand wats he wan from me even he ady break wit me but i still can feel tat he was around wit me and din ever make me uncomfortable but i still can saw he keep on touch other gul like the staff around thr n keep on do the things tat i not like..he make me feel so hate he when saw he do dis kind of things and feel tat wan 2 punch he and staright away walk out from the place tat i was working and dun hope 2 see he 4ever and ever...................y i need 2 suffer bcoz of he..y??????actually until now i still cant forget he and feel tat wan 2 couple wit he again but i cant do it coz my heart ady broke by he means ady no more......4ever n ever still left a few days he work at papa rich....after tat we ady cant meet anymore somemore we ady no more couple so i tat time i cant even contact wit he or sms n saw he anymore....i know he was a playful boy and like 2 disturd girl like how he did 2 other girl n keep on bully me when we ady break up...but i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i ahte all kind of dis nonsense....its make me so frustrated....even i wan 2 feel all kind of dis but the things tat i really wan it is can couple wit he like how we hold hand 2 each other n kissing 2 each other...tats is call real couple and i dun hope tat we fighting around or he touch other gul hand.......like how he do 2day...i hate it.....idiot bitch....he dare 2 do all kind of dis infront of me but i still need 2 be good 2 he...i really cant understand wat he was thinking n what i was thinking now.....actually i still can find other guy who hv a better choice...but i still pretend like dis n saty at the lonely world n so suffering world wit he...........y?????????y i still hv 2 act coool and y i still love he....

my new dearest in2010:)

hahahhaha...i come again 2 continue my latest story...ehem ehem...other than arguement,fighting,tiredness,working,pressure n alot of sweet n sour things...at my new place n first month of feb in the new year of 2010 i found my happiness in papa rich kota kemuning n can make alot of new frenz too....actually i ady date six times from i form 1 till now i finish spm n ady 18 yaers old...but among de six guys i cant feel tat i couple wit them coz they just let me a unhappiness memories..finally i ady find the one who are really care me more than tat n i oso can say tat i not sure 2 wat he thinking n he background..but i can feel it n look from he character n how much he care 2 he family especially the sister n he mom...i can say tat is too fast 4 us 2 get 2gether n 2 understand he but i dunwan 2 waste my time 2 understand he well n on the other hand i hope i can believe he n he oso can believe me n care more about me coz i not a brave gul n abit shy when socialise with other person same 2 him..somemore i just oni noe he n ady start couple wit he so i cant so good 2 he n bcoz of dis it will make he feel tat i not like he n sometime v oos will argue bcoz of dis.....so i really hope tat he could understand my situation n plssss dun make me more pressure coz i really so stress d..hv 2 worry n think alot of things...about my study,resultn my future...i really how 2 manage it....i not like them wan money 4 study n wan wat sure got n they sure will get it....i hv 2 earn spend 4 myself even i got family n from a sederhana family but i still need 2 depend 2 myself...so i dun hope tat i get a bf who keep on 2 make me n stress n din ever care much bout me or just take me as he toy.....i wish he can be my first n last n make me more happy n dun make me sad......anyway on the same i oso can oso can do as the same as it.....erm....so dis can be say tat its god is very good 2 me coz let me find a good job...salary n a good guy 2 accompany me..hahahhaaha

hope he wont make me dissapointed yea....tatata

goodnitez everyone...:)

hi my dearest frenz...i come back d after one month n now ady 2010..sry yea....

haloo....my dearest frenz i was coming back d with my new hair style n look...erm...i start on last year dis k??after finish spm on dis...i start my work at wh aeon jusco bukit tinggi as a sales girl...on tat time i was so busy wit my work till no time 2 accompany my family d...haiz..so sad...but anyway i still hv some arguement wit my father coz he say my work place is too far n ask me 2 stop n change work..so its make me damn sad n bcoz of tat i fight wit he..luckily i change my mind then go 2 interview in papa rich at my nearest house kota kemuning n get work at thr....so its make me feel happy of it...actually i go 2 interview as waitress but the boss want me 2 become cashier o..so i go 2 try it lo...after change 2 here...i work at nite 2 midnite...which was from 4pm-1am...so i need 2 come back at 1.30am...its oso very susah 4 me coz my father sure will wait me till i coming back home...its make me so pening....i scared he will ask me 2 chnage work n find again another work.....i dun hope it coz work at thr its quite fun n i dunwan bcoz of tat not understanding father make me keep on change work...anyway i ady heard wat he told me tat change work 2 my nearest house n i ady do it...so from now onwards i ady promise 2 myself i wont change d...if he still ask me 2 change it...i sure wont respect 2 he decision de...coz i ady i hv no time anymore..i need earn enough money 4 my study in hairdressing course..n i need 2 start it on next year...so i should do it.........erm...now oni i understand ppl life is unperfect...we hv 2 depend 2 ourself 2 do it better n 2 make our life become more meaningful...until now i still rmb 2 wat my frenz say "just be urself dont always try 2 be other person...i always u drin"until now i still can rmb it..even my bf oso say tat 2 me...ok la...i stop here n continue the 2nd wan...k???love u all.....muaksssss

my happy day

2day i off but still need 2 wake up morning 2 meet my frenz at puchong ioi mall at 1pm...
b4 that i went 2 school 2 gv back all de book then took bus 2 ioi mall wit kah heng 2 ioi mall...after we arrive i,chai mei n kah heng hv our lunch at mcd while waiting 4 chuen yuen,chun tek,shun xiang n all some of my frenz from batu lapan....so miss they!!then we decide 2 go sing k....after that we planning 2 sing k till 8pm....but after chai mei come...some of my frenz who is xiu mun,shuet li,n one girl....feel not happy so they went back...after that chai mei oso leave wit her bf...n tat kuan oso gone...then oni left me,chuen yuen,chun tek,shun xiang,kah heng,kah heng leng zai...n me....i feel not comfortable coz one girl wit 5 guys....anyway they oso my frenz...hehee..after that i n kah heng went back at 6pm coz my father come 2 fetch me....then i went back just oni left 4 them...then i went back take my bath...online till midnite..
thats all....lazy....ahhahaha

my freedom is coming soon...

hurray still left one subject 2 going on that was ekonomi which on monday...
after that i going 2 shout as loud as i can..they maybe will not thinking i crazy gua coz some ppl sure shout oso like me as loud as they can after finish de ekonomi test..coz thats was our last paper n after we finish de test means...our SPM is over,our HIGH school life is over,my FREEDOM is coming sooon...then first i will go 2 work,highlight or maybe dye my hair,buy new handphone,n get enough money start 2 take hair dressing course then at de last take car lisence....n after i graduated from my hairdressing course then i will gv money 2 my lovely grandmom n grandfather n parents,buy laptop,ipodl,new car,n all the things that i wan it.....
anyway 2day i ady went 2 jusco bukit tinggi 2 find job...then wanted guessssss wat happening???
firstly i go 2 find each shop n found out that so many shop ady full n some of de shop just oni want part time job such as subzero...but i dunwan part time..i wan full time 2 make me earn more money as i can.....then i went 2 WH shop n i was so happy n thanks 2 my lovely god at thr coz.............................i get de JOB...but its make me not so like it coz still hv 2 wait till 14 disember....actually i planning after finish spm..then straight away headed 2 job but it make me hv 2 wait till 14 dfisember..haih!!wat can i do...just wait lo....
then i still go 2 other shop 2 find it out....but still de nonsense reason which was experience,perminent n age o....damn bad la.....but luckily i get 4 shop which was elizabeth,treats,opera which was my favourite shop ady got my name n they will confirm me as welll...hahahahha..however when i told my grandmom about it..my grandmom like no like it coz my supervisor is malay so my lovely grandmom scared 2 see i bully by de malay ppl....so i feeel unhappy 2 see my grandmom like that...so i hope that i will not disappointed my grandmomn grandfather..n my parenst as welll.......n i hope that de chinese shop like opera shoe shop can hired me coz i feel that if i work at thr i will be cheerful n my attitude towards everyone will be change especially my attitude n i will oso on the same time feel tired n stress.....thats is the things that i want 2 found out other than earn money2 continue my study in hairdressing course...but the problem is i ady confirm wit de supervisor at thr n its sight look very good salary that i can get but oni de things is i need 2 PATIENCE........OK LA....THATS ALL 4 2DAYYYYYYY

the things that make me realize something which are very important in our life

2day after finish account test..its make me realise something...
i think alot of things started from beggining till de end...
i wonder y in dis world so many people so like 2 ean alot of money n y so many ppl want 2 study hard till college????actually is bcoz of money can buy dis world n bcoz thats is de way how our human stay in dis world...but some ppl will not think of money..they just oni want 2 hv a meaningful life...other than that i oso realize that after i finish spm..i will growing bigger like adults n need 2 be independent n hv 2 experience alot of things around dis world...like i hv 2 find job 2 earn money 4 my hair dressing course...n hv 2 think how 2 be independent n try 2 change my atttitude tooo...i oso hv 2 learn how 2 communicate with other ppl in dis world n hv 2 try 2 socialize wit other ppl.....the most important things is we as adult n ady start 2 earn money..hv 2 try 2 be a patience person n dont always keep revenge with other person..all of this kind of things make me realize that how difficult 2 be a independent person n dont always think its too easy 2 stay in dis world without money n the most important is self independent...we hv 2 always try dont not depend other ppl 2 help us...n try 2 be humble when something in de situation which need us 2 learn something from other then oni v can learn up something n its oso can make each other more gooodddd......not only that i oso hv 2 learn how 2 keep money n dont always waste it coz wit that money i need 2 use 4 my hair dressing course n taking car license.....then after i finish my course n start working i need 2 gv back the money 2 my parents n my lovely grandmom n grandfather who take care me from smalll 2 big......
ok la....this is some of the things that make me realize....
byeeeeee...see u

the days b4 start account....

2day i ady finish my moral at 10.30am....so come back early...so swt..hahah
then my mom come 2 fetch me at school n went 2 shop 2 buy some vegetables 4 cook...
when i coming back home..feel that very very tired n feel that want go 2 sleep early but hv 2 finish my lunch first then oni i went 2 sleep at 12 something till 2.14pm...so after i wake up then straight away go 2 take bath b4 get ready 2 study 4 my account...actually not feel that want 2 study 4 account but whaever wats the matter..i still want 2 start 2 revise my account test which will start by next week...so i went 2 matahari clubhouse 2 start my revision till 8pm..then went 2 my cousin house 4 watching movie...i feel that very happy when talk wit my cousin n we decide 2 go 4 watching movie on dis friday which was 2010 but heard my cousin'aaron'say that the ticket was full n need 2 booked first b4 we going thr....ehehe..so happy that can go 2 watch movie wit my cousin n hope that my father will let me 2 go..btw my cousin told me that i become so fat ady n need 2 jian fei liao so i really need 2 keep fit ady n hope i will keep my body figure as nice as my cousin'aurdy'which has a nice body shape like model....haizzzzzzzz
anyway i get a good news from my cousin that he will be going 2 work at my aunt pavillion restaurant on 27 nov by cooking vietnamese food..hahaha...damn great leh..hahhaa
n one more things is my cousin going 2 in the modelling centre with his friend who is shine shawn...feel that so jeolous 2 them...T.T..then i stay at thr 2 watch movie wit my cousin till 11 something oni come back...so i hv 2 going 2 sleep now coz 2moro need 2 wake up at 5 something 2 go my aunt shop....tattaa..gudnitexxxxx

my unhappy day...

2day is my fifth day of spm..
i feel very stress n tired...
keep on study 4 my maths but still cant remember it...coz i hate maths...when i told my grandmom that i cant study 4 my maths n cant even fokus to it...my grandmom feel so sad n very worried about me...i feel like very upset coz when saw my grandmom so worry about me...everytime when i told something 2 my grandmom about de bad things of me..she sure feel very sad...so i promise 2 myself that i wont make my grandmom feel unhappy bcoz of me....she always care bout me n i should not make her feel sad...but 2day i really make my grandmom feel very sad bcoz i do something wrg that make she so upset....i really dunwan it happening but wat should i do after i ady make it....'ahma'i really so sorry 2 make u feel sad n so worry about me..but i promise u that i will try my best 2 do my spm well not matter wat its happening...thanksssss very much my lovely grandmom....i love u very much...anyway i always think that wat should i do 2 make my family feel happy n wat should i do 2 change my attitude..i really dunno wat should i do...it make me feel so headache somemore plus my spm is ady on the way n after that i need 2 worry about have a money 4 my hair dressing course...i dunwan 2 take my grandmom money coz my grandmom ady not working somemore she hv 2 take that money 4 her own..not matter wats is happening i really dunwan 2 take my grandmom money but i really worried that my father will force me 2 take my grandmom money since he ady not working anymore...i really dont hope that is happening...if really not enough money...i will other job 4 part time n borrow money from my grandmom or my father n not matter whoi first 2 start my hairdressing course than oni use my part time money n after i finish study then work..i will use that money 2 gv bavck 2 my grandmom or de person who borrow me money 2 study 4 my hairdressing course....anyway i oso hope that i can doing well in my study of hairdressing course...i hope that in dis 10 month course..i will try my best 2 learn it well n could understand it well bout it....so i will be stop here coz i need 2 go sleep d....
gudnitex my frenzzzzzz........

my life

in my life i was from a big family wit 6 member..

i love my grandmom very much coz she take care me from small 2 big..

oni my grandmom can make me feel happy wont hv any of pressure..

everytime i will think of her not matter how i feel...

anyway i still lost something in my life..although suroundings me hv alot of ppl can teman me n take care me but i still cant find de perfect person in my life who can take me n teman me when i need someone..i still cant hv something that i want in my life too...

so i really hope that i can get de things that i havent get..n wish i will hv a perfect day in my life!!

anyway everyday i will saw alot of sweet couple 2gether wit their smile n full of hapinness..i will feel very jeolous 2 them..wish that i can hv someone that can share he life story wit me...

lastly wish everyone hv a sweet day wit their lover...

the things that i hv 2 start over

2day i feel very sad coz i fight wit my bf n cousin..

i really not understand y everytime i want 2 let them feel happy n feel that i is a gud girl..

they sure think de bad things of me..or sure think i mad..

y they cant ever accept me 2 be a gud girl...

when i make joke wit my cousin,he feel that i annoying..n hate de way how i act..

when i take good of them but they say i hv something wrg in my mind..

when i say something gud things 2 them but they cant ever accept it...

i really not understand each person mind n wat they thinking of me..

y so many things around me is weird..

i want 2 change my attitude n everything that make ppl sad..

i want 2 change but need a time 2 change....

i want to let everyone understand me...

dis world ppl is weird..

de things that i cant accept...

in dis world no such things is perfect such as love, friendship,person,things..
in my life oni got sadness n anger...
from small i got alot of pressure..although so many ppl very take care of me but i still feel very sad coz my atttitude n oso bcoz 2 many ppl look gud after me..make me feel so stress...
i really not understand y other ppl parents can talk nicely 2 their children but y my parents cant...they always fight 2 each other..until wan 2 break up..everytime they sure fight 2 each other not matter wat is happening around them..everytime they fight 2 each other i will feel very scared n feel like wan run out from my house but i noe i cant do it...
they make me very stress..not happy..frustrated...n scare...
bcoz of that my attitude become more worse..thats y i become very bad..n everyday keep on scold by my father n beat by he..but i still can tahan n always remind me that dont feel angry 2 he coz that is my fault..but i cant do..i still feel very angry 2 he..so i just always try 2 hide myself in room n cry..then talk 2 god 2 let me hv a wonderful life wit my family...everytime if i feel sad or happy..i sure will share my story wit my god coz i cant share my story wit anyone...
when i grow up...i become not obedient 2 my parents n always do a wrg things 2 make them feel sad..but not my fault actually coz is them make me become like dis..if from smaller they didnt everyday fight wit each other infront of me n keep on lepas geram 2 me..i sure will not become like dis....i feel very suffer althought i is normal person n hv a alot of ppl sayang me..i still rmb when my parents almost wan 2 break up that time...i feel very scared until cant pay attention 2 my study...then got one teacher come 2 ask me then bring me go 2 see counselor teacher...
when i was form 2...i become hardworking coz i get into de last classs..2 uum..so i work harder 2 prove 2 my parents that i am clever n not de person who is stupid n cant do anyhthing else...
finally i berjaya 2 do it..n prove taht i am smart girl 2 anyone..from that day onwards they feel pround 2 me..i feel very happy..but when i get pmr result 5b 2c..make me feel very dissapointed althought i work hard...but i didnt gv up..i still study hard 2 get a gud result in form 4 till form 5...but after i shift 2 shah alam...i become more lazy n cant pay attetion 2 my study..
i ady change 7 school from smalll until i go 2 secondary schoool...till i change 2 shah alam school i feel become more lazy liao..i think that after i change 2 shah alam school..i will become better but after i shift 2 here..i become more lazy...i cant pay attettion 2 study...keep on ponteng school n didnt go 4 tuition...n hv no any best frenz...i make them hate me n misunderstood me....i feeel very lonely n hate myself n school...i wish that faster finish study n go out 2 work but i noe outside life is very though so i need 2 finish my study n get a gud result in spm..then oni can going out 2 work..but i really cant tahan anymore..when i shift 2 here my father become so hot tempered coz he need 2 share money wit my uncle 2 open shop althought he not like my uncle...when de shop start open he become so hot tempered n everyday keep on lepas geram 2 me...coz i make he more stress...i noe i cant let he feel more sad bcoz of my problem again but i really dunno how 2 control it..my parents keep on force me 2 study but i cant ever pay attetttion 2 my study at all althought spm still got three weeks..de most sda things is i feel that my grandmom feel more hate me n cant accept wat i do...i noe i ady hurt so many ppl around me..i noe i cant do it n cant let them feel sad bcoz of me..but everytime i wan 2 do 2de right things sure got something that make them cant understand me..actually i wan become a gud,obedient,hardworking,n let everyone proud of me...but i really not understand y i cant do it..y i cant gud 2 them..or talk nicely 2 them..y i cant hv someone 2 share my story wit them..y i cant become a gud girl like others..y i cant y icant y i cant y i cant y i cant..........................i feel very stress....i feel that no one in dis world can understand me but oni can seee my bad side....
i try 2 2 do it...i hv one hobby is dance..but i cant learn it coz i need 2 finish study first..dance can make me become more happy..everytime i saw they dance..i will feel very happy n jeolous 2 them...i oso hv one ambition is become hair stylist...i feel very happy when help ppl 2 cut hair,wash hair,design hair...n meet alot of ppl...i feel happy when enter each competttion n hair show....i feel happy when enter into hair industry..n can enter each hair show competttion...i very like it althought they looook down on dis hair industry..n they mind feel not gud..but i still like it very much...i plan 2 become hair stylist in my future....i wan let everyone know that allycia wong shu rong is a famous hair stylist....i wan let everyone look up 2 hair industry..i wan let my parents proud 2 me...i wan let my lovely grandmom feel happy,proud,n look up 2 me n hair industry...i wan 2 change my attttitude...i wan 2 change everythings n start a new life...althought everyone look down me..hate me..not understand me...but i still wan 2 prove 2 everyone.................lastly i hope everyone gv comment n share ur story 2 me...THANKS...............BYE BYE LUV U MUAKSSSSSSSSSSSSS

the things that i cant understand

sometime i really not understand y people must be until so sombong...if someone make a mistakes v hv 2 gv their chance 2 change..y cant even gv a chance 2 let them chance de...i hv lie 2 one person but i keep on explaining 2 he..he oso dunwan 2 heard wat i say...i feel very angry 2 that kind of person..ppl just oni wan 2 make fun n i ady sorry 2 that person but he still cant even forgive me at all....that person really make me so angry..if someone ady try 2 explain n say sorry 2 u then nvm..la but he cant even forgive ppl 2 cheat he de...like my aunt not like 2 lie ppl but when someone cheat her..she still not care n forgive that person..mah!!!y dis kind of ppl cant do ittttttttttttttttt

no mood 2 talk anymore..bye

he smile make me feel so happy..

in my life hv nothing special things that i can share...

but after i meet he..he let me know that in dis world no such dis things is perfect even frienship n love..i learn that v should be pround 2 ourself..n dun even try 2 be other person that u cant even be..i very thanks 2 he 2 make me pround 2 myself n dont look down on myself...

somemore de way how he talk wit me n look at me..make me feel vey happy without any pressure...he let my life more meaningful wit happinesss...

not even that...i promise 2 myself that from now onwards i will learn 2 love myself n learn how 2 love other ppl too....but de most sad things is he stay too far from me n cant even look at he 4 a few minutes..i hope that one day we will work 2gether n spend my rest time wit he....

hehheheheheheh..tata gudbye my LOVE!!!!

no such things that can make me fun...

2day i feel very sienzz coz nth 2 do..

my life always going very boring n din hv anything special things that i wan 2 do..

haizz...feel that 2moro wan going out wit bf 2 jusco but hv 2 wait he 2 confirm..n feel that saturday wan going out wit cousin n my frenz 2 sunway but hv 2 wait till saturday..

isssh..spm is coming soon...liao..need do alot of preparation..n get ready 4 spm......lo

but i hv no mood n lazy 2 study...leh!!somemore i just think that 2 pass my bm n english oni n get certificate..its ok..liao so make me until so lazy 2 study but i still can do it de..hhehehehee

2day i really tired d so hv 2 sleep early..

gudnite everyone..muakssss..luv u@.@

de blur life

i having a headache now..

i feel very bored today but yesterday i was feel very happy coz i going 2 sunway pyramid wit my frenz n cousin 4 shopping n watch movie..

v hv watch de ghost movie which is call as 'the unbelieveable things'...

then 2day i hv nth 2 do...just go 4 tuition at 3pm then come back at 4.30pm...

after that sleep 4awhile..n went 2 my cousin house..lo

haizzzzzzzzz...nth 2 do much..

feel abit tired but happy coz 2moro no exam 4 our art stream....

hahaaha...feel 2moro wan go 2 wang xian which is my aunt restaurant..

hahahahaaha...so going 2 sleep now..

gud nite n hv a sweet dream...

the unbelieveble thingS

2day i having a moral test...

quite difficult...n cant do it as well...

dunno how 2 manage it..

luckily i can finish it at de last n pass it up..

when going back time...i feel very tired until cant talk anymore so i went 2 sleep 4awhile..lo

then wake up...after finish bath n do something...then go 2 my cousin house 2 hv fun till 11.20pm

after that i go 2 eat my yummy burger n take bath..

then go 2 on9 4awhile..n get ready 2 sleep now......

hv a sweet dream...@.@

Trial Ex@m weeK

2DAY is 3rd day of exam..

having sejarah test..kinda hard until i cant get any point on it...dunnoe wan 2 write wat..

after finish test...going back home n hv a nap till 5pm...after that go 4 tuition in dunia didik...

when coming back from tuition,hear a bad news from my dad bout my uncle hv found that my cousin date wit one guy...'my gosh!!wonder how it happen??'then i get a explanation from her!!...

then when nite time......i just take my time 2 online..................n dreaming!!

-bbbbbbye-

th3 EnD oF Holid@Y week

today is de last day of holiday...@.@

tomorrow need go to school ady...haiz feel sienzZZ..

n need get ready 4 trial on wednesday...

hopefully can pass de trial exam wit flying colour..

2day i hv nothing special wan 2 share...

just feel sad after fight wit someone hu r very important 2 me...

haizzzz.........dunnoe wan 2 do wat in my life!!

keep on thinking of something....................

-dream,dream,dream-