the day u went away:)

i really not understand actually whats the meaning of life..in this world thr are a variet of person...some ppl who are just like to be so hyper at each moment..some of them are just want to be cool enough to stay thr to hide the feelings...really cant have a imagination to what nowdays human thinking..which just like unnormal..

like how i am feelings now..sometimes i really cant recognise who i am...i really cant figure out like how my feelings now..i really dun understand what do i thinking now..y cant i just forget evrything about he and i already now thats is impossible for me to be he together cause he was older than me 5 years but i still want to be with he....y cant i just let it go..and takes that everything havent happen before...like how he already forget everything about me...

the life of me..

the only things that can make me happy and not care anythings which around me..is only be ur side and dont hope to care anythings else my life..i like ur smile,the way u look into my eye..and everythings bout ur..i just hope that can stay with u 4ever and ever..:)


i hate myself to be like this..keep on feel bad about other ppl..actually all because of my fault..
anyway i hate oso hate myself to angry to someone else when saw he keep on make fool on other girl..i hate this kind of feelings and dont hope to keep it to me..coz its will affect me relationship with that person one day..so i really dont hope that i have feelings to anyone that i want..just want to stay happy and dont want to think too much..i admire he for such a long time..there are nothings can make me feel gv up to he..

everytime saw into he eye feel i want to be he side every minute of my life..

everytime saw he talk with me..feel want to spend the rest of my life with he..

everytime saw he sit with me..just want to stop my life to stay with he..

i really dont know how to gv up on he..but i understand thats just for a few minutes..actually is not a longer period for me to stay with he when the time is came:(

there are impossible for me to get together with he..but i really thankss to god to let me can met he again after one year..and can work with he again..when i saw he come back d..i feel very happy because thats let me know that i still have a chance to saw he again..lucky on the help of god..i can work with he..friends with he..talk with he..eat with he..fetch by he...and do alot of things that we can share to each other...sms with he..call by he..thankssssssss the thousand of love to let me stay with he at every moment of my life..i feel that my family are right..they keep on say that i will feel very happy not matter how he scold me..and everythings is about he..i will feel in this world is my..

i scared if one day he like another girl and ingnore me...

or he really already make decision to leave this company to work in another company..

then he will never ever come back d...after that we cannot meet again...

then HOW???i will really scared if i already not working here anymore..would i still can share everythings with he like how its happen now...

today i already gv up on he and i wont think about he anymore form now onwards

its already enough for me to get hurt.i just want to gv up on he and wont think anything about he anymore...he smile..he joke..he laughter..and everything about he not matter whats is happening..i just want to forget it and wont care about he anymore..

i already get hurt and the time is get to end at this moment..

i am so stupid...keep on hurt by men...not matter how i unhappy..happy or anything else..

he wont care me at all...he wont turn he head to look me at all...

coz i am so young and he is older..he just take me as collegues or friends...

so y i must keep on think about he and want he fall love to me....y am i so stupid to think the impossible things that i ady face so many times...

actually i am so care that he will see how rude am i

but today i not scared anymore..today i just be brave and show to he that i not like other girl who are so pretty with the good looking...anyway i just want to be myself..

when the day i was alone

this is 5th times change job..everyone sure think that i am the person who like to change work but actually i not...i just want to try new things whichc can make me feel more good n get more experience to it..anyway i feel so sad coz i have leave my nice working place that i ever find it in my life but unfortunately i oso not working thr anymore..now i still confusing what should i do coz today when my first day working at my new place then suddenly i get a call and ask me go to interview..its will surprising me but its oso very good coz i back to careffour again but i still need to be humble enough and i think dis was my last job d...coz i have change too many job d..n i dont want my make other ppl misunderstand me while i keep on changing work somemore keep on stay at the same place...i ady feel so tired dis kind of life..i really not understand y i should make myself become so kelam kabut and so crazy..y i should make till all ppl hate me..i really not understand what other ppl will think about me ..i keep on think a negative side about other ppl about me...i just feel so lucky to have my study,work that around me...especially my lovely greadmom...if not i think i will not alive anymore...its so much pain in my life...everyday i just try to avoid as much as possible..

i am so lonely

in this world there are no such things which are call as a good things...and no such things that are call as a friendship...everytime i will feel that am i so special if compare to other girls..thats means am i so ugly..so rude..so crazy infront of everyone espeacially guy..i just find out that every guy that i know...just oni a normal person and is they just took me like a normal girl who are so easy to be cheat n make fool enough..i always told myself y i am so rude at the house but i not rude and strong enough infront of those ppl who i screw at them n want to punch,slap or amke fool on them..especially to the guy that i hate...to those who think i am easily to cheat or make fool enough..I HATE THOSE PPL....i ady meet alot of different ppl in my life..n thr no such ppl around me is a good person that can make me believe to friendship...especially love....FUCK U..IF U DONT LIKE ME THEN JUST FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE...FUCK U XO.....CIBAI...MAHAI...GO TO DIE LA FUCKER...i am who i am....form today onwards i will not care to how the ppl is..not matter how great was he..not matter how handsome was he...not matter how rich was he...not matter how smart was he...n not matter how...form today onwards i will swear on god n to myself ALLYCIA WONG SHU RONG will show u all especially to all the pp, who look down on me....i will show that i not a easy girl to make fool on easily to be cheat...FUCK U LA...TO ALL THE IDIOT,SUCKERS PERSON...go to hell la....i hate i hATE i hate.....form today onwards i ALLYCIA WONG SHU RONG will make u guys that look down on mee...JUST WAIT N SEEE.....................................FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE IF NO LIKE ME...

i am so lonely

i just wonder y i cant like them be happy n not nid to act cool enough to face everything..i wonder y i cant just be like them not nid to worry anything too much if its does not u matter..wish that i can just be a normal girl..not nid to worry tooo much things n whaever thats are not my pro...anyway in my life i din evev feel so happy...i always feel so lonely in my world...i really hope that have someone can walk into my world who are very care to me..and always share my pro with he..honestly when i want to find someone to talk..thr are one can help me..coz thr no one can help me...even my family or someone that are very important to me...i feel very tired in facing my life for 18 years till today..however i am sucessfully achieve my half ambition to pass in my upsr,pmr and mostly my SPM..and finally i can in college..at least i still can continue my study aND which in my lovely course hotel management that i want to take since i was secondary..i feel very happy coZ everything is going well not matter in my study n work..but i still feel very lonely however i ady get my own laptop n going to get my new handphone and my camera..anyway thats is just oni half of that..

actually the things thats i want is LOVE..i want love from my parents..from my relatives,from my cousin,from my friends..and from everyone thats i noe..especially from my lovely grandparents..anyway they ady show it to me..but i still cant escape from dis evil life in my body..i just try to escape it and dont hope to happen in my life which control my attitude,tempered and everything that is related to me...its very scaring until i dunno how to control it and hope it can escape from my life..plssssssssss...........

i feel so tired and its very stressful for me..i really hope that god can help me...i really dunwan it to be happen in my life 4ver....(its just something else who are keep disturbing my life...)thr are nothing special in my life..honestly i can tell u guys i feel so boring with my life d...really so boring...i want to stopppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp ittttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2day just wake up early in the morning around 7 something...my face feel like dead crop..haizzzz..anyway i still feel very happy coz can go to play badminton with my sister n brother in kota damansara..i feel very energetic n feel tat thats is quite long time i din play badminton n do sport...after i getting busy with my work n study..i feel very tired but anyway i still feel very happy coz can earn money to buy laptop n study n continue study in college..other than that i oso hv less burden..i like it n its very tired too...anyway now i still work as part time waitresss in pak hailam cafe near my house n study on weekdays..lucky the boss is very good person n still let me to work however i ady change my work time for so many times...maybe is just because not enough workers..if not i ady resigned n din work anymore..haizzz...i still want to work to afford my daily life n study or not i really will have alot of burden...thanksss to god to let me have a good study n work..thankssss to god:)anyway i still have to face alot pro in my world coz everyday need to worry my work n study n scared i will hurt anyone around me or do any mistakes in my work n relationship either study n other....i just try to avoid all the evil things but i cant do it coz i really dunno how to change my attitude n do the correct way....at the night time went to my aunt shop in klang..n visit my lovely grandmom n grandpap..i feel very proud of it n its very good to me...dis few days i have alot assingment need to be complete n lucky still have one month to let me finish it n its was in the group....hahahah...still have to try my best to finish my assingment somemore with the group...i need noe how to manage it n have 2 noe how to settle the problem that we face..at the last thats all for today.....:)
hope my lovely grandparents have a nice day n nice dream..i love u all..muakssssss:)

i am so emo:(

till today i still feel very sad in every minute of my life..i feel my burden are become very heavy n heavy till i cant afford to make it be light in my life..i hate it damn much..i just hope to make myself relax without thinking of anything...everytime when i feel sad i sure will hide my feeling in my heart n dun wanna to share with anyone coz i really dunno want to share with who..there no one that i can share...i need to study from monday to thursday n need to work on friday n saturday...only one day to be rest on sunday..i really feel very tired n dun hope to work anymore coz my college life become more tough now...i have 3 asssignment need to be finish n pass up in the same time which on 31 august..lucky its was group work n we still have one month to finish it..haizzz...somemore need to get ready for event management thats was our class project need to be finish and the date line oso on august of 6..other than that i still have to finish my homework which was account make me so tough..n english..i really need a time for myself to study n finish work..but i still need to work for my daily life n study..i dun hope to take money from my parents..its make me more burden..i more hate it ...i just to want to be myself n hope i can recover from my mad n sicknesss...i just hope to escape it from my bad attitude which make everyone who are care about me to be hurt especially my lovely grandmom..i want to do it not matter wats happening just want to change my bad attitude..i just hope it...anyway i still need my work to afford my everything which havent be finish at all n need to be finish as i wish i can get it ..ahahhhahah...

at the last i want to say Allycia Wong Shu Rong is time for u to change n try to do the best to make ur life be more meaningful n escape from the evil life..make ur lovely grandmom to be happy forever..n dun make anyone who are care about u to be hurt again n again..Allycia Wong Shu Rong just try to do it n dont give in ur life..ALLYCIA WONG SHU RONG u sure can do it:)

argggghhhhhh!!!

i really cant understand y people cant have a perfect way to walk in their world..in dis world no such things are perfect like how my life now..2day i wake up early n have breakfast with my family in vegetarian shop then come late to class at 12 something..suppose the class begin at 12pm..then after class at 3 then we went to summit to watch movie the legend is born ip man..i like it damn much coz its have a nice story n background..its quite funny tooo...hahahahaa...anyway before tat we oso went 4 dinner n walk before the movie start..i very happy but when going back home time..i just have a arguement with my father..i hate it damn much like to talk alot...then complain to my grandmom..make my lovely grandmom cry n feel so sad...i hate i hate...other than tat today the idiot bakery call me n scold me pula...she say ask me to come for training at 5p...but actually she din told me tat n just ask me to come on thursday..isssshhhhh..hate it damn much la...wat the hell with dis kind of people..i really cant understand y got dis kind of perosn..isshshhshhshshs...whaever..i oso feel tat dunwan to work a double work..but at nite she suddenly ask me to go work on sunday o...haahhaha..wat a funny things...anyway i still have to went back..lo...unfortunately can get more salary hahahahha.....at the last i want to scream out AHMA I LOVE U IN MY LIFE NOT MATTER WATS HAPPENING IN STILL WANT TO STAY IN UR LIFE..AHMA I MISS U...AHMA PLSSS FORGIVE TO EVERYTHING I WAS DONE...SORRRRRRRRYYYYYYYY......AHMA DUN CRY....I LOVE U SOOOOOO MUCH....

sarah,ben zhi,fadhi and me..

vivien and me..

the evil of myself..

i just imagine wat person i am..i really hope tat to be a good person in my world..anyway i still cant do it coz i cant be able to control my emotions and attitude as welll...i really hate myself..everytime keep on make my family n frenz worried about me...i just wanna try to be other person n dun ever hope to be myself..i really hate myself till want to die...everything when i feel very stress or under pressure..i will become a mad person like the hell..so i really hope tat to change everything in my life and change my attitude as well...i really dun hope to be evil and make everyone so hurt just bcoz of me especially my lovely grandmom and my parents who are care me so much and try to escape me from the evil world...now i ady face alot of things and can earn money and pay my own fees and ady reach to college and mix with a different of ppl..i feel tat every of my friends can be good to their family or either siblings or to their friends..they can escape them from under pressure..or out of control..i just hope tat to be other n dun hope to be myself...i hate..i hate i hate...some of them who are change me alot but unfortunately i still cant change myself into good...i really cant undersrand actually wat do i hope other than dis...i face alot of things and try to be myself and had learn alot of mistakes from the wrong to be better..
i really hope tat my world will be change change change...on the other hand..i want to be grow up in my life and dun hope to keep myself in evil..pls let me away from my self...i feel very hurt wanna to change...hope i can try my best to be better as well...:)

the 3rd day of my college..

2day is my 3rd day in college..2day having introduction of hospitality which teach by miss farah...she is a good lecturer and not so strict la..anyway feel glad to teach by miss farah coz she is so funny....in other hand i oso feel so happy coz get to know two new frenz from diploma of accountacy...who was mimi and jiesie...ahhahaa....actually before i enter through college..i thought tat college life is boring but now i found tat college life is very fun and niceeeee.....ahhahaa...i meet alot new frenz and found tat study life is very fun and v can have some games on it during the class time...yesterday i just learn a general languages..anyway thr are something boring things which everyday when having break time dunno wan to go whr for lunch...other than summit old town and other stall..its ady no more other stall can go for lunch...isssshhhhh....maybe next week we have get ready for asssigment and presentation for my general languages...haizzzzz...my freedom day is ady want to finish....haizzzzz.....its ok...i already get ready for my assigment and on the hand i am so excited for my college life assigment....ahhahahhaaa

my first day of college..

2day is my first day of orientation...just feel everything was change after i step to segi college on the first day..no more uniform,no more school shoes...more freedom and can meet alot of friends...feel so happy but still have something i feel so upset coz i still cant control my hot tempered but me feel not satisfied..bcoz of my hot tempered i hv make my family fight to each other and hv make my grandmom feel i crazy...y i cant control it...i really want to change my hot tempered..i dun hope it keep on make me hate by others...its ady enough for me to become a bad person with the bad attitude..and crazy...and everything thats control me from small to big...i dunwan to hate by other ppl anymore..i dunwan to make my grandmom upset and cry..i dunwan to make my siblings fight to each other..i dunwan to make my parents so upset bcoz of me..i dunwan to really dunwan hate by others ppl..just to satisfied my witness....its ady enough for me to get hurt and ady enough for other ppl to get hurt bcoz of me....i hate myself damn much......someone have told me b4 need to be a ourselve..duneven try to be other....i still rmb the words that he gv a advice to me...i really feel so glateful to noe he and thankssssss very much but i still cant do it coz that was not me at all...now i just hope everything evil things just disapperead around me..i dunwan to get control by it anymore from today onwards...i hate it damn much.....after the day today i hv see alot of different in my life usually from starting to the end...now i can feel that my ambition hv achieve to in college..but i still need to achieve my study as well to prove that Allycia Wong Shu Rong is not a failure person but is a berjaya ppl.........i can do it.......^^

everything was just change of sudden

after the day tomorrow..i could feel tat the day is keep on changing in my life...and my life is getting more challenging and sometime maybe will feel kinda bored as well....dunno how 2 clasified it..just one word can be say tat i feel very excited coz my scool is going to start next week...hahahaah...so gud..or not i really feel so boring...coz everyday need 2 face alot of problem when working time and feel very tired as well....haizzzzzzz...anyway i really hope tat my life will getting more fun and chalengging without any of triredness or feel boring and other...one things make me happy is i bought a new laptop and i get to college on next wek monday....other than that i oso can earn money as well...while study time...i really hope tat is will be fine overall in my life....dunwan 2 be like last time...which was so crazy in my life...i hate my emosional and too crazy attitude...i just wan to start my new life and plsssssss i can change my attitude as well...like how normal ppl can do it...i just wanna to be myself...plsssss

today i feel so boring and very hate myself who cant even control myself tempered..i feel so boring and feel tat wan 2 find people to lepas geram..i hate to be like dis..but i really cant control my hot tempered..its make me so feel soo bad..anyway yesterday i din have a good sleep..somemore i feel so boring and cant parents somemore keep on annoying at my ear..its make me feell so bad about it...i just hope to relax at home and just want tooo have my freedom like how other people got..tats is just a simple things..but y they keep on care about me like 3 years child who still drink mommy milk..i hate it very much...i ady 18 years and i need a freedom..can u just let me do wat i want and plsssss dun keep on gv me a pressure..i will feel very stress and its will cause my emotion..u noee??????after resigned from papa rich i thought i can hv more rest but its not..its just a burden too me....i hate about it damn much!!!!i want to find part time job in carrefour by tomorrow..anot i scared in dis two weeks..i will become mad girl....its make me feel so annoying,boring,and bad mood..on the other hand i really cant understand myself sometimes..actually i just want FREEDOM from parents..then everything will be fine...i dun hope to argue alot..i am already toooo tired....plsss let me alone..and do wat i want..pls dun keep on annoying at my ear...plssss dun so care about me..plsss let me FREE in my world..i already feel very very very very very very tired......................................................

JUST LET ALLYCIA WONG SHU RONG FREE IN HER WORLD..PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

i really cant understand wat guys he was thinking....he thought i like he just because he was handsome..he thought he think everything was right..sorry about tat..i really can say tat i like he not because of he handsome but just because i like he coz its a feeling...i really cant understand y should i like he sooo much...he just a ordinary guy wit the simple looking but he ady hurt me 2 times more than tat..i hate he sooooo much...first time he say he like me and want 2 couple wit me then after that he become soo gud 2 me...somemore start couple wit me...i ahte he soooooooooo much...i really soo dissapointed 2 myself..y should i like he soo much eevn he din care me soo much somemore everytime sure hurt me alot...i hate he sooo much...how come he just pretend like everything does not happening around i and he at all...i cant understand how come he do tat 2 me...make me waste time,waste money.....its ok..from now onwards i ay told myself i will break up wit he and contact wit he anymore in my life...i hate dis guy sooo much

i want share my life with he every minute of every second in my life^^

2day i went 2 papa rich with my dear....we went thr 4 eat lunch but finally just order some fries and water 4 drink...then i oso meet he frenz at thr...lucky we can talk till so friendly...i love rynier alot...coz he sooo cute...he keep on say sorry coz he was late and apologize 2 me bcoz of the frenz fault....he make me feel tat he so honest....my dear is the best person in my life but cant replace my swetty grandmom in my heart....i love my swetty grandmom sooooooo much than my dear....anyway i still feel tat very happy by when stay wit my dear side...sometimes he will make me feel sad....sometimes he will make me feel very happy....sometimes he will bully me..i like he smile,i like he hold my hand,i like he heart,i like he bully me......i love he type...and everything in my life whaever how he become.....i still always stay with he side....hope tat we can stay 4ever n ever in my life and future like how we be now.....anyway i just wan rynier tattoi...

RYNIER<3allycia...allycia<3rynier>

the day pass one day by one day

after get a new job....i ady change my job 2 papa rich n work 4 almost 2months more...now ady want 2 resigned and continue my study in segi college on 24th may...hope everything willl be sussceful...anyway i will try my best 2 finish my study for 4 and half year....and hv a sucessful life in my future...which would bring good 2 my family......other than that i want 2 show 2 my lovely grandmom...and i want 2 let my lovely grandmom hv happy...including my lovely grandpap tooo...start work make me so stress plus now i couple with different culture guy who are very like 2 be relax and very like 2 play game.....he look very friendly 2 me...and very care 2 me...but after he resigned from papa rich...i seldom saw he anymore even talk oso become lesssss......y he hv 2 make me till like dis..i really cant control my feeling...and cover my sadnesss....i just can recover my feeling by patient and din ever wan 2 gv up on he....my heart feel very painful,tired,stress,and headache....i really not understand wat he was thinking and who i am 2 he???y sometime i can fel the happiness in our life and sometimes i hv 2 solve the pro when i was suffer bcoz of he......i dunwan 2 be like dis...ady so many times i wan 2 break up wit he bcoz of the small matter but i dont hope our realtionship become bad bcoz of my feeling...........i dunwan it happen but i dun like 2 stay in dis sadness worold between i and he....everytime he sure gv alot of excuse tat i cant accept...wat should i do now?????

however i still feel very happy coz i still can feel he love when saw he from the sight,smile and when he talk 2 me with the smilling face......xtually i cant understand wat happen 2 us...

he make me feel so nice n sad....

i dunno how 2 start our relationship..and how 2 end up our relationship...
i feel very hurt n feel so lonely....
actually i and he already break up and become friends but how come he act like have nothing was happening and still can always play,laugh and kidding wit me...i know we still are friends we can play,kidding and take care each other as a friends but i dun hope that only..i wan couple wit he like hold hand,hug,call he everynite and kiss 2 each otherbut i already feel ok even we already break up but he still take good care of me like how we couple tat time....i really cant understand wats he wan from me even he ady break wit me but i still can feel tat he was around wit me and din ever make me uncomfortable but i still can saw he keep on touch other gul like the staff around thr n keep on do the things tat i not like..he make me feel so hate he when saw he do dis kind of things and feel tat wan 2 punch he and staright away walk out from the place tat i was working and dun hope 2 see he 4ever and ever...................y i need 2 suffer bcoz of he..y??????actually until now i still cant forget he and feel tat wan 2 couple wit he again but i cant do it coz my heart ady broke by he means ady no more......4ever n ever still left a few days he work at papa rich....after tat we ady cant meet anymore somemore we ady no more couple so i tat time i cant even contact wit he or sms n saw he anymore....i know he was a playful boy and like 2 disturd girl like how he did 2 other girl n keep on bully me when we ady break up...but i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i ahte all kind of dis nonsense....its make me so frustrated....even i wan 2 feel all kind of dis but the things tat i really wan it is can couple wit he like how we hold hand 2 each other n kissing 2 each other...tats is call real couple and i dun hope tat we fighting around or he touch other gul hand.......like how he do 2day...i hate it.....idiot bitch....he dare 2 do all kind of dis infront of me but i still need 2 be good 2 he...i really cant understand wat he was thinking n what i was thinking now.....actually i still can find other guy who hv a better choice...but i still pretend like dis n saty at the lonely world n so suffering world wit he...........y?????????y i still hv 2 act coool and y i still love he....