happy day :)

today is my happy day and i know i cant ponteng class but this is the only chance

to going out for shopping , movie , and eat with my friends .. there are nisa and xin yee ... i feel

soooo happy because can go for wash and blow at apt .. there are three of us and firstly i have make the person give us rm28 for let us wash and blow and after that can have a leng zai for me to wash and blow hahaah ... soo syok can release all my stress out after finish wash and blow nice

.. then go for another trip with xin yee and nisa by having our lunch in cafe ..

now only i realize that in this world there are no guy that can believe and there are only friends can believe and i will promise to myself from now onwards wont believe to any guys anymore ... there are only have a hurt and tears .. anyway just forget it and try to be happy all the time like today .... after have our lunch ... we go for movie Scream 4 ... is very funny but scaring ... and actually my mood is soo syok but after realize that there are a STUPID FUCKERS GUY sitting down there keep on looking up and do something that make people feel that STUPID FUCKERS GUY look like a shit is a mad perosn ... damn piss off ... and totally make my mood spoilt luckily the STUPID FUCKERS IDIOT person faster get off from the cinema .... mahai ... make my mood spoilt ... but nvm after that i ady forget it and still back to movie ... after that ahead to shopping and wan to buy alot of clothes but need to wait till i have enough money first ... ahhaha first of all i need to ta ke my car license as soon as possible and then continue with all the stuff... after back to home i ask xin yee fetch me back mcd.. and going back home feel can relax and hear to music but end up get scolding by the OLD BICTH .. totally spoilt my mood again ... diu han si ... hate it and damn it ... go to damn u the little STUPID DAMN FUCKERS GIRL la .. cibai .. then after that then only get out from here ..... ishhhh DAMN LA suppose be happy day an dall because of the fuckers OLD BICTH fault .. Damn la ...fuck off and chill... anway i enjoy before that

hate to be lonely

i just want to change to be a better of person in my life ..

y cant give me a chance to change it to become the better person in my life ..

i just need a love , protection and a better lifestyle with full of happiness..

i just need a normal life and i have a family and alot of friends but i still

feel very lonely everytime and every second of my time...maybe i dunno how to

appreciate them but i really is the type oif the girl who are dont even know how to apppreciated to other person and just do whaever i like but pls give me a chance to change it to better ...

i just hate myself to be lonely in everytime of every second of my time ... its make me crazy and .. today my friends last minutes only told me thats tml will be having a meeting but all is the last minutes problem ... how could i want to take a transport to subang and nobody can fetch me even the person i need a help toi fetch me also run away as soon as possible and i know thats not they choice too..but i really feel thats i am very lonely after realize thats today problem make me feel thats i am just a lonely girl who dunno how to express out my feeling and dont know how to live in this kind of life ... i just want to be like other person with alot of freedom and i want to change everything bad to good as well...i hate this kind of life with alot of stress and i would like to change a better to have a life without any of tension and happiness ............... i just want to be alike like other people ... y is sooo difficult for me ...

feel sick in these few days ....

this few days my sorethroat is very painful till cant talk anymore..

damn piss off and cant eat whaever i want...need to be more alert to the food and drink much water as i can...anyway i feeling very sick and very dizzy...everytime sure feel very dizzy because of lack sleep and not enough exercise and feel very stress too...

just a few days ago fight with the guy again..damn hate he la...i know he just kidding but

why must on my no mood time go to kacau people...damn he la...fucking piss off

and dulan because of thats person makes me no mood to work anymore...

anyway thats oso good for me to make me more focus ob study but when working time i scared because of he again i need to be emo...hate it la ....nothing much can say fucking hate it sooooo muchiieeeee..why got dis kind of person de...haizzzzzz

2 days is my very bad day + bad mood..pisss it off

today i feel very bad mood the whole day..is really makes me sooo bad mood with the bad

days the whole days...early in the morning the computer already spoil already makes me feel

so bad bad mood because need to do the whole report and need to search one by one carefully anot will let them scold me kao kao....damn piss off wei...fuck it off la the stupid computer and the report from my life makes me feel so tired..and never mind because its my work and i supppose to do it but early in the morning the just because of the stupid computer makes me feel so bad d but not soo bad because at least is not the computer fault but early in the morning

already makes a mistakes and giving more money to the customer..

i am really such a blur girl and its already makes me damn pisss off with it but still another problem came up....need to check the stock manually and done everythings especially others...

anyway all of thats is my responsible things to do it...now is the more serious things is today i just want to ask question thats i dunno to make it more clear but the keep on get scolded by the people so damn hate it and damn dulan of her...

i know she angry is just because she want to release her anger but if she really want to release dun la release on other person have to know how to respect other people as a collegues and cant keep on just do whatever she like mah...damn hate la somemore i already try to be patience all the time when with her but now she really make me sooo beh tahan with the wat kind of the attitude with thats...be soh cari orang marah happy then find people to gila....then before talk till finish she ady off people phone...u know wat is "MORAL"....

then somemore people ady sooo piss off faster finish my work and keep on get scolded but the stupid fuckers "BITCH GOH" come to kacau people....yesterday the stupid suckers mahai orang asing come to buat hal now come again the stupid fuckers "BITCH" which can knowns as the FUCKERS stupid ass AUTHY "DAUGHTER" AND THE mahai suckers stupid iDIOT ORANG ASING "WIFE" really so suit to pokai together la..damn benci and hate it......go to bark like a dog..yesterday the stupid orang asing with tak ada otak punya ady can go to hell la GO TO CAMPAK THE MONEY luckily din kena me kena me i let the idiot go to jail straight away.....now comeagain THE SUPER DUPER BITCH...same attitude...people ady want to give back the money then last minutes take out the cibai credit card like very rich but finally end up with the cannot process card..ahhahahahahahahah...laugh like the hell for the BITCH...

THEN after thats second time THE BITCH sengaja take out the money again for the last minutes....damn her la....make hehr pokai like a hell and jump into the jungle ..not nid to stay at the whole la..such a UNLUCKY DAY..ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHH

DUN LET ME SAW AGAIN..DAMN SUPER DUPER HATE IT

the most laughing day for me:)

today should be my happy day but i can feel tired and lazy somemore

when at the morning time i am really full of lazyness and feel very headache cause

of my sore throat suddenly feel like have something stuck at the middle of my troat..

really feel very sick and hot body then after thats get scold again really

makes me feel more piss offf and want to go home for rest but i cant ..after awhile i am feel much better or not i am sooo dulan and want to die d...feeel so suffer..

althought thats but after thats i get better and another the whole day have no customer..

only a few of my bosss customer and our sales is very low..but also is a happy days for me because i can chit chat happily with my collegues and spend a great time with them with laugh and a jokes..then after thats going back to careffour see again my another funny friends..

actually he is very ego and he is the only one i keep on want to kidding with he and makes he feel so geli and hates me when i bully he...

anyway sometimes he will say the words thats i hate it but i also feel very happy to it because i need to be patience to stop he from angry me again..i really scared thats he will stop talking to me althought he is not sooo goood..and what for i want to care what he say but i really dunwan makes he angry

the working day again

early in the morning already get scold..very bad in the mood...

but still makes me feel double bad mood again..haizzzz..damn piss it off..

i am sooo tired and feel so sleepy..everyday lack of sleeep..my life is only working, study, eat, sleep, rushing for assignment, exam, shopping, and try to how communicate with the people thats i dunno and mostly of them is the stupid idiot authy

and uncle which have scold me before and taught me before...just a few days ago meet a stupid fatty womanand old folks lady scold me just not because of my matter...go to hell la scold people without any of reason..feel so tired d still need the two old folks women face especially thesuper duper idiot old folks women talking like without any respect..pls la authy and the fatty women still complain me when i was having a customer service times..just go to HELL la both of the women....make me damn pissss it off....dulan....damn it la..if i not working sure screw back...

another idiot day..unlucky

1st day

today just have a big complain from customer..

actually is not my fault but i keep on blame by others..actually i thought thats i was working

afternoon shift but all of sudden they say is my fault because when they

ask the person in charge then they say is my fault after thats..

say i was late for around 11am makes me need to lost rm60 ringgit u noe...is rm60 abig amount which i cannot buy alot of things with it..super duper hate it..

pissssss it offf...hate it very much...just have a complain from the idiot stupid women fuckers at my another outlet then makes me keep scolding by the idiot suckers women..piss it off..

now again another problem at the same place..not only thats because of rm1000 then i only i kepp work full time to get my money but now say i lost rm60 from there...$mcmcmkj%$mxmmm...damn pisssss off..but what can i do all the people say my fault and what la thats la..

if i say another things then the pakat sure say again my fault...

damn it..all bad day for me....damnn hate it alot..

hate to be emotional all the time:(

i am feel so sad to be tooo emotional all the time..

actually i just wanna to be a normal girl without any pressure and stress and

just try to be happy with my family, lovely grandparents and my friends including all the

person aound me but i cant...everytime i sure keep on argue with my parents..

for not allowed me do that do this and anthing else thats i hate to do it..

i just cant stand my hot tempered all the time and totally hate myself till makes my family keepon argue to each other just because of me..i really really want to change my attitude but i cant do it..

anyway i have try to change alot since the day i was working at here and i was feel

have learn alot from my collegues and friends who always care for me and teach me how to learn

not tooo emotional all the time and try to avoid the bad things from side..

i havelearn how to communicate to those ppl..but i still cant control my emotional when going back home time..its totally makes me feel i am soo suck..

i just hope my family can be happy and my lovely grandparents especially my lovely grandmom will not argue with my grandpap and will have a healty body..dun worried too much about me and my studborn father..i will feel happpy and will do everythings just as my lovely grandmom will feel happy and my family and all my friends....just hope i can done it well...

lonely girl..

i not understand what am i thinking now and actually wat i want now..is makes me feel sooo lonely when the day have passs...finally i already can makes it dont want to think too much and care so much d...its makes me so tired and its makes me hate myself to be like this...i really cant understand who i am actually...

anyway i wont feel so upset de...i know i am always lonely girl and nobody wont takes me as their best friends at all....i am really worry my two best collegues will hate me and wont talk with me anymore...i damn hate it....

feel so headache and dont know want to do what to avoid myself to be unhappy...i want to have my own vacations with my friends and hope i will be happy everytime of every second of the time not matter in what situation...

feelings

i just only a little girl who are only know how to keep feelings..

i really cant understand to those people who are really know how to express they feelings out without care whether is hurt that person heart anot..i really cant understand...i am feel so bad to my ownself..anyway today i just realize that actually i just a a girl who with the childish minded..

and just only know how to act cute and cool all the time..or just pretend as a person who are keep the feelings all the time...i am really feel sooo lonely and dont know how to express out my feelings actually..i feel sooo lonely enough...i reallly dont know how to maintain my feelings now..i cant calm myself down...actually i just know how to hide my feelings and dont want to makes other ppl dissapointed..i like this job soo much but i oso a human..

how come ppl just dont care wat i am thinking and how come i just keep silent all the time when its have somethings makes me not happy..i really dont want to give other ppl a burden..

i really dont want to makes other ppl feel so unhappy when working time..

i just only can hide my feelings all the time...thats is only the way i can keep silent all the time and just pretend happy enough..

i am really sooo tired with all the arguments d...its makes me hurt enough..

i am really so faint down with all kind of this noisy and nossense around me..i just hope that everythings will be cool down and just hope everyone will happy...the way to do it..just kjeep my own as CLOWN..

imperfect..

there was no imperfect things in this world..
sure have the bad side if the person have too good looking..

today i just found it that everyone sure will have their bad before have their goods..

when i start working fromeach of the different places then only i can noe that there are imperfect things in this world such as when..the people give me a impression who are good looking from other people sights but from inside is not...

anyway i just found my real world after go around the places and having alot of trouble..

finally i get wat i want to do and what actually i want it..

sometimes will feel happy and sometimes will sad..

after big round just found thats i doesnt need everythings but i just need the friends around me..

when the days i start working at pepito hair studio..i feel very warm and wont feel any dissapointed or sad..i feel sooo happy can chit chat with them and makes a joke with them..

everytime in every minutes of second i sure feel so happy coz can saw them and i like this job tooo much..there are too many my friendly collegues and friends..is makes me want to stay with them forever and ever not matter whats is happening..

i am always lonely girl in my life..there are no best friends and best family for me...

i am lonely in everywhere i have been..but this only the places thats i can found my fun and happiness...is makes me ady enough without anythings..

i have learn sp many things in pepito hair studio and makes a real friends with them..

thats are no more stress and more boring to me..working+study is already anough d..

from there i can learn how to communicates with my people and learns how to wash and blow people hair..others than thats i can learn how to do treatment..

i feel wants to thanks sooo much to Sebastian and my beloved friends to let me learns soo many things..:)

however start with my exam in this sem 2..

i am feel so stress when having this exam...especially the stupid french which makes me feel so stress..i think i can do it very well and feel very intresting..but end up with boring..

i am sooo scared thats i need retake in this sem..

especially marketing and french..

its makes me soo worries if i retake..i will lost everythings if i need..i REALLY DONT WANT TO LOST MY JOB..:'(

imperfect..

u makes me feel so dissapointed..

on this few days i am feel soooo stress and just hope that can just stay in a peaceful life and dont feel want to worry too much things about it..just want to be steady in my life..

there are too much of works need to be done at the last minutes time and there are too much things need to be worried..

i really cant figure out how he looks like but after i have been knowing he well then only i can regonised that he is the one doesnt like to worry tooo much things and just take all the not important things as a small matter and take it as doesnt happen b4 in he life..

i am so pround that he could be like that..anyway i feel hurt when there are someone who likes he and keep on disturbing he...thats doenst matter wat but the girl was my best friends and she keep on annoying about he at my ear..its makes me feel thats was not uncomfortable at all...communication between i and he was quite less and there are no more things that can makes me want to share with he..

anyway just forget about it...its was gone and finally i can just look into he eye and talking with he as a friends and collegues and there are no more strangers between us..its already so fair for me..thanksss for god to give me the chanceto work with he..makes jokes with he...and can do everything else thats can makes me stay with he..thats was ady enough..and i not hope anything else anymore between me and he..haha!!!!!!

however not matter was is happening there was the only chance thats can makes me stay with he..its ady so fair and sooo good to me..if he really likes other else girl...i am really happy for it and wishes he all the best for he..wahaahhhah!!!!!!!

the day u went away:)

i really not understand actually whats the meaning of life..in this world thr are a variet of person...some ppl who are just like to be so hyper at each moment..some of them are just want to be cool enough to stay thr to hide the feelings...really cant have a imagination to what nowdays human thinking..which just like unnormal..

like how i am feelings now..sometimes i really cant recognise who i am...i really cant figure out like how my feelings now..i really dun understand what do i thinking now..y cant i just forget evrything about he and i already now thats is impossible for me to be he together cause he was older than me 5 years but i still want to be with he....y cant i just let it go..and takes that everything havent happen before...like how he already forget everything about me...

the life of me..

the only things that can make me happy and not care anythings which around me..is only be ur side and dont hope to care anythings else my life..i like ur smile,the way u look into my eye..and everythings bout ur..i just hope that can stay with u 4ever and ever..:)


i hate myself to be like this..keep on feel bad about other ppl..actually all because of my fault..
anyway i hate oso hate myself to angry to someone else when saw he keep on make fool on other girl..i hate this kind of feelings and dont hope to keep it to me..coz its will affect me relationship with that person one day..so i really dont hope that i have feelings to anyone that i want..just want to stay happy and dont want to think too much..i admire he for such a long time..there are nothings can make me feel gv up to he..

everytime saw into he eye feel i want to be he side every minute of my life..

everytime saw he talk with me..feel want to spend the rest of my life with he..

everytime saw he sit with me..just want to stop my life to stay with he..

i really dont know how to gv up on he..but i understand thats just for a few minutes..actually is not a longer period for me to stay with he when the time is came:(

there are impossible for me to get together with he..but i really thankss to god to let me can met he again after one year..and can work with he again..when i saw he come back d..i feel very happy because thats let me know that i still have a chance to saw he again..lucky on the help of god..i can work with he..friends with he..talk with he..eat with he..fetch by he...and do alot of things that we can share to each other...sms with he..call by he..thankssssssss the thousand of love to let me stay with he at every moment of my life..i feel that my family are right..they keep on say that i will feel very happy not matter how he scold me..and everythings is about he..i will feel in this world is my..

i scared if one day he like another girl and ingnore me...

or he really already make decision to leave this company to work in another company..

then he will never ever come back d...after that we cannot meet again...

then HOW???i will really scared if i already not working here anymore..would i still can share everythings with he like how its happen now...

today i already gv up on he and i wont think about he anymore form now onwards

its already enough for me to get hurt.i just want to gv up on he and wont think anything about he anymore...he smile..he joke..he laughter..and everything about he not matter whats is happening..i just want to forget it and wont care about he anymore..

i already get hurt and the time is get to end at this moment..

i am so stupid...keep on hurt by men...not matter how i unhappy..happy or anything else..

he wont care me at all...he wont turn he head to look me at all...

coz i am so young and he is older..he just take me as collegues or friends...

so y i must keep on think about he and want he fall love to me....y am i so stupid to think the impossible things that i ady face so many times...

actually i am so care that he will see how rude am i

but today i not scared anymore..today i just be brave and show to he that i not like other girl who are so pretty with the good looking...anyway i just want to be myself..

when the day i was alone

this is 5th times change job..everyone sure think that i am the person who like to change work but actually i not...i just want to try new things whichc can make me feel more good n get more experience to it..anyway i feel so sad coz i have leave my nice working place that i ever find it in my life but unfortunately i oso not working thr anymore..now i still confusing what should i do coz today when my first day working at my new place then suddenly i get a call and ask me go to interview..its will surprising me but its oso very good coz i back to careffour again but i still need to be humble enough and i think dis was my last job d...coz i have change too many job d..n i dont want my make other ppl misunderstand me while i keep on changing work somemore keep on stay at the same place...i ady feel so tired dis kind of life..i really not understand y i should make myself become so kelam kabut and so crazy..y i should make till all ppl hate me..i really not understand what other ppl will think about me ..i keep on think a negative side about other ppl about me...i just feel so lucky to have my study,work that around me...especially my lovely greadmom...if not i think i will not alive anymore...its so much pain in my life...everyday i just try to avoid as much as possible..

i am so lonely

in this world there are no such things which are call as a good things...and no such things that are call as a friendship...everytime i will feel that am i so special if compare to other girls..thats means am i so ugly..so rude..so crazy infront of everyone espeacially guy..i just find out that every guy that i know...just oni a normal person and is they just took me like a normal girl who are so easy to be cheat n make fool enough..i always told myself y i am so rude at the house but i not rude and strong enough infront of those ppl who i screw at them n want to punch,slap or amke fool on them..especially to the guy that i hate...to those who think i am easily to cheat or make fool enough..I HATE THOSE PPL....i ady meet alot of different ppl in my life..n thr no such ppl around me is a good person that can make me believe to friendship...especially love....FUCK U..IF U DONT LIKE ME THEN JUST FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE...FUCK U XO.....CIBAI...MAHAI...GO TO DIE LA FUCKER...i am who i am....form today onwards i will not care to how the ppl is..not matter how great was he..not matter how handsome was he...not matter how rich was he...not matter how smart was he...n not matter how...form today onwards i will swear on god n to myself ALLYCIA WONG SHU RONG will show u all especially to all the pp, who look down on me....i will show that i not a easy girl to make fool on easily to be cheat...FUCK U LA...TO ALL THE IDIOT,SUCKERS PERSON...go to hell la....i hate i hATE i hate.....form today onwards i ALLYCIA WONG SHU RONG will make u guys that look down on mee...JUST WAIT N SEEE.....................................FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE IF NO LIKE ME...

i am so lonely

i just wonder y i cant like them be happy n not nid to act cool enough to face everything..i wonder y i cant just be like them not nid to worry anything too much if its does not u matter..wish that i can just be a normal girl..not nid to worry tooo much things n whaever thats are not my pro...anyway in my life i din evev feel so happy...i always feel so lonely in my world...i really hope that have someone can walk into my world who are very care to me..and always share my pro with he..honestly when i want to find someone to talk..thr are one can help me..coz thr no one can help me...even my family or someone that are very important to me...i feel very tired in facing my life for 18 years till today..however i am sucessfully achieve my half ambition to pass in my upsr,pmr and mostly my SPM..and finally i can in college..at least i still can continue my study aND which in my lovely course hotel management that i want to take since i was secondary..i feel very happy coZ everything is going well not matter in my study n work..but i still feel very lonely however i ady get my own laptop n going to get my new handphone and my camera..anyway thats is just oni half of that..

actually the things thats i want is LOVE..i want love from my parents..from my relatives,from my cousin,from my friends..and from everyone thats i noe..especially from my lovely grandparents..anyway they ady show it to me..but i still cant escape from dis evil life in my body..i just try to escape it and dont hope to happen in my life which control my attitude,tempered and everything that is related to me...its very scaring until i dunno how to control it and hope it can escape from my life..plssssssssss...........

i feel so tired and its very stressful for me..i really hope that god can help me...i really dunwan it to be happen in my life 4ver....(its just something else who are keep disturbing my life...)thr are nothing special in my life..honestly i can tell u guys i feel so boring with my life d...really so boring...i want to stopppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp ittttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2day just wake up early in the morning around 7 something...my face feel like dead crop..haizzzz..anyway i still feel very happy coz can go to play badminton with my sister n brother in kota damansara..i feel very energetic n feel tat thats is quite long time i din play badminton n do sport...after i getting busy with my work n study..i feel very tired but anyway i still feel very happy coz can earn money to buy laptop n study n continue study in college..other than that i oso hv less burden..i like it n its very tired too...anyway now i still work as part time waitresss in pak hailam cafe near my house n study on weekdays..lucky the boss is very good person n still let me to work however i ady change my work time for so many times...maybe is just because not enough workers..if not i ady resigned n din work anymore..haizzz...i still want to work to afford my daily life n study or not i really will have alot of burden...thanksss to god to let me have a good study n work..thankssss to god:)anyway i still have to face alot pro in my world coz everyday need to worry my work n study n scared i will hurt anyone around me or do any mistakes in my work n relationship either study n other....i just try to avoid all the evil things but i cant do it coz i really dunno how to change my attitude n do the correct way....at the night time went to my aunt shop in klang..n visit my lovely grandmom n grandpap..i feel very proud of it n its very good to me...dis few days i have alot assingment need to be complete n lucky still have one month to let me finish it n its was in the group....hahahah...still have to try my best to finish my assingment somemore with the group...i need noe how to manage it n have 2 noe how to settle the problem that we face..at the last thats all for today.....:)
hope my lovely grandparents have a nice day n nice dream..i love u all..muakssssss:)

i am so emo:(

till today i still feel very sad in every minute of my life..i feel my burden are become very heavy n heavy till i cant afford to make it be light in my life..i hate it damn much..i just hope to make myself relax without thinking of anything...everytime when i feel sad i sure will hide my feeling in my heart n dun wanna to share with anyone coz i really dunno want to share with who..there no one that i can share...i need to study from monday to thursday n need to work on friday n saturday...only one day to be rest on sunday..i really feel very tired n dun hope to work anymore coz my college life become more tough now...i have 3 asssignment need to be finish n pass up in the same time which on 31 august..lucky its was group work n we still have one month to finish it..haizzz...somemore need to get ready for event management thats was our class project need to be finish and the date line oso on august of 6..other than that i still have to finish my homework which was account make me so tough..n english..i really need a time for myself to study n finish work..but i still need to work for my daily life n study..i dun hope to take money from my parents..its make me more burden..i more hate it ...i just to want to be myself n hope i can recover from my mad n sicknesss...i just hope to escape it from my bad attitude which make everyone who are care about me to be hurt especially my lovely grandmom..i want to do it not matter wats happening just want to change my bad attitude..i just hope it...anyway i still need my work to afford my everything which havent be finish at all n need to be finish as i wish i can get it ..ahahhhahah...

at the last i want to say Allycia Wong Shu Rong is time for u to change n try to do the best to make ur life be more meaningful n escape from the evil life..make ur lovely grandmom to be happy forever..n dun make anyone who are care about u to be hurt again n again..Allycia Wong Shu Rong just try to do it n dont give in ur life..ALLYCIA WONG SHU RONG u sure can do it:)