Singapore Trip

the first day i need to wake up around 5 but i have awake at 4am , is soo early for me but just wake up and get ready for everything then just go to the airport and wait my aunt at there for few minutes .. after that we need to rush and go for the check in . thats was the first time i and my family sit aeroplane , makes us soo surprise and we have flight at 7.10am then arrive at there around 8 something , thats was too fast .

after that we have took at taxi go to Johor Bahru and have a breakfast at there .. and then chit chat with my lovely cousin , but just i am sooo sleppy till cant eat anytime and just want to sleep .. anyway i saw jimmy but he dont even recognise me . As my though he was not sooo handsome but he soo handsome and cool which was totally different than the person that i though .. anyway i was sleepy and went up to sleep after my lovely grandmom and my aunt go to Singapore . then we have leave johor and check in Singapore but its took a long time for check in , so mang fan .. totally is change alot and become soo annoying .

then we arrive at the Singapore , my aunt have brough us go to Sentosa to play and have alot of fun thr but i hate that bitch around , feel like i cant breathe . anyway still very enjoyed just need to walk alot places make me so tired + somemore the bitch is around , more moody F.U.C.K ..n anyway at least come for supper time and have a lot of intresting food .. its nice and delicious the we went back then come again the bitch pattern , i feel like want to kill that bitch and ask that bitch go to hell better ...FUCK !!!!!!!! then come to the next day actually plan to go to the Zoo Negara but end up with the cancel and not going d , whats a sad case because my lovely bro have missed it then we go to the Guang Yin Temple to pray , make me more relax then after that we go to my father emak angkat thr and have lunch together , she bring us go to the restaurant which beside the beach , thats was alot of food and we have eat tilll so full till the stomach also cant fill anymore , its very delicious ... i like the aunt very very very much because she was veli care about me and always ask me go to find her after i finish study then she will let me work in her restaurant but i still think about it because i still more prefer stay at own country rather than go to other ppl country to let ppl to look down so maybe i after finish study i was planning work in kl , but still havent noe yet need to take my license first .

then only plan see how was it .. anyway at the nite time we ahve go to toa payoh and eat then go thr walk walk and have a buble tea , thats was nice somemore i have discovered that i like singapore because of the mrt and the shopping centre , environment but the only one things is very mangfan when go to country , Super Duper Mang fan .... i hate it damn much so next time better just go back to johor first then only go back to own country is would be better than waste alot of time at the kastam .. is totally damn someore + another bitch with the sound make me more want to kill that person automatically FUCK ... then finally coming back to home d .. its the time to rest but not rest enough at all anyway its over slept d hahah

who i am

i am just a normal girl who like to have a weird thinking , just dont know whats i have to do but when something is come to me , i always feel thats was not the things that i like , i will very easy to become mad and just ignore with surroundings , what should i do to make me become not so hot tempered .. thats was ady enough for me to make everyone sad and scared just because of me , i just dont know whats i am doing .. i keep on asking myself whats is happening to me when the things actually is right but i make it soo complicated example actually just a earth with the nice green forest surroundings but why people need to damages it

why cant just let it be pretty and let everyone can have a nice scenery with the good air without any polution ??? why why why

i am keep on asking myself whats the real colour of me , am i bad or good ?? i really cant get the answer .. should say i have a two face and everyone is just look from my good site , cant define how actually i look from inside

i just cant understand why everytime i admit but i just cant change it when met with that bitch *FUCK*, actually should be a nice mood but suddenly TURN to become bad mood .. damn her !!!!!!!! (the bitch should be dissapear from my life) then my life will become more brighten

i dont want to be lonely

after go through so many problem , finally found out alot of things that make me feel there are nothing impossible , and the important is we have to appreciate our time with the pppl around us and dont make them feel unhappy just because of u emo-ing ..

sorry for my attitude , i know i am rude but i am who i am .. so i wont care to how ppl loook on me , tease me or anything ... because they rite , i not a good girl , i just the person who with the bad tempered , rude , lc and will easily get mad and wont care who you are .. i am just care about myself with sympathy and without empathy .. that is how i am ...

so what , i just cant change the reality but i will try to change to become the better to care each person around me .. just please take me as a normal person pls dont make me feel lonely , i am scared to be lonely ... i just afraid to be alone ...

so the only is i will appreciate my time with everyone and make friends with them but only to the person who worth to be friends means not everyone also can be so easy make friends with me , if the person not type that i can accept , i dont think in this power is better than everyone but kindness is the most important in this life ..

July

July would be my tougher month and is my new month starting a new job with my aunt in a Rt Bakery which work as a cashier .. there are the first time i working in the bakery .. dont know how was the feel like .. although i have work as a cashier before .. but i knew that there sure will be very hard and i willing to learn it somemore i gonna face it in the future too as i taking my course as a hotel management .. k now i am gonna start today the first july of i am sick for 2 days d and today wake up late make me skip class for computer essential .. feel abit dissapointed because i am promise to myself i need to attend each of the classes but today i have not going for the class just because i am late and i was miss one chapter which i gonna have to catch up Gambateh :) .. so sad .. :( anyway assigment dateline such as a academic english and computer essential is getting closer and closer .. need to spend alot of time in my assignment tim .. anyway there are too many exersice that have to finish too .. why la its hapening in this month because this month is my birthday .. hoho ..

i gonna to clb my birthday on 10th of july in Aeon Jusco Bukit Tinggi with all my beloved friends but i still havent get my salary yet .. damn to my previous employer .. actually can get by yesterday but with the many of compliment .. and bla bla bla say that i only can get my salary by today .. damn anyway lucky one of my collegues have help me .. suppose to say damn to the boss .. hate it ~~~ like to potong and sekat ppl gaji when the people are gonna to resign ..

there are too much things that need to worries and do .. i gonna be very very rushing .. just hope that everything will go smoothly by this month .. wont have any fighting , arguments or unlucky .. pls god .. amitoufu .. hopefully .. but since i dont think so its a good starter for me "choi , touchwood " because i just skip my class but its just normal la .. heehe .. but things have come to me last minutes .. although it was .. but its okie lucky and thanks to god somethings that have go smoothly for me and feel like in every problem sure got the solutions in finally .. thanks god .. i love u .. amitoufu .. ahaahaha

anyway wishes my family , lovely grandmom and me myself will have a prosperous month and in every month .. everything will went smoothly .. ommg today gonna be my tired day .. woops ..><

the way of me looking tired + stress and need a time for my own

i am soo sad :(

i am just so hate myself too be emotional ...

so wish i could just pretend to laugh as how ppl laugh .. and dont care about anything ..but i just cant understand why i cant do it .. why why why should i care too much ..

i just want to be ordinary and have a simple life as i can but i cant .. i just cant control my emotional .. can i just stop it and start a new life .. just dont want to change the reality of me

i just cant cry and just cant stoping to think about u ... teach me how to change change change ..

i am full of confusing and wanted to cry and shout as loud as i can but i cant do it .. just cant .. hope can just become as strong as i can but i cant just sooo weak make me wanted someone that could hear me hug me .. i am verry weak and no more energy to continue my life .. how could i just become strong .. just the alcohol can make me drunk drunk drunk and make me have a enery to start again my life .. haizzzz just want to stop everything and start back ... teach me how could i just pretend there are nothing happen while i still watch it .. i am super duper headache now ... grrrrrrrrrrrrr ... just hope god couldd save me ..

the day with friends

collegues going for makan makan after work.. thanks rick :)

funny Dave :) haha

Janwee and our person in charge Rick :)

Me , Nisha AND Sue :) glad to meet them

Edwin and me :)

Xin Yee <3 she are sooo pretty

nisha and me :)

best friends forever :)Me , Nisha and Xin Yee

the day have been changed alot since u go from my life :) learn from mistake and start the new life

the day when u are gone my life have been changed alot and try to learn from mistakes and improve myself from stop being so stupid anymore .. i just want to be myself and wont try to do any stupid things anymore ... i am no more last time "Allycia" thats only know how to cry and always feel so lonely and wont share her experiences to everyone .. from today onwards i will stop my tears and try to accept the reality .. u make me soo dissapointed and i am regret too to what i have did for u ... hope u can stay happy always ... anyway start from my life .. i am feel so tired everytime and my life are getting so complicated in every minute and every second in my life ... just feel my life are soooo empthy and want to find the things that i reallly want .. no one will understand to what that i want to do and want to say about it ... just oni my lovely grandmom will cure my heart :) i will feel so happy with my grandmom together not matter how hard was it ... i just want to stay with my grandmom not matter whats was happening :) however now was having my sem break and everyday was just oni work work work and i feel so stress when working time .. just feel dont want to work and dont hope to get self emo and stress ...but i cant do it .. just feel veli ma zan when working time.. anyway start with my journey today ... i was wake up in the early morning today and went to pray at puchong ... feel tired but happy ... just realize that actually in this life one person not need to be soo selfish and let urself become so unhappy and make everyone surround u feel so scared and emo ....just try to accept the reality of the world and try to help with each other is the better way to control our emotions from being lonely ... tired for argument and negative thinking ... i am soooo sooo tired d .. anyway its have wake me up from mistakes .. try to accept the reality and try not be someone else that u cant be :)

dont understand some of things

i just cant understand why life need to become so troublesome ..

why cant it more easier to let ppl more happy and just let this world be more cheer up ..but everything need to start from the beginner before achieve something thats u really hope to be .. others than that v have to know how to appreaciate the ppl around us ..
there are nothing much that v can change because there are already the luck infront of us ..

we just can try to be ourselves and dun try to change anything is the better way to be ..

i am soo sorry for my past and want to start back to be a better person in my future ...

there are nothing i could change and say .. the only want is i just want to have my ordinary life .. i am boring and tired of eacch of the arguments and stress d .. there are nothing we can gain if keep stay with unhappinesss things and dun try to accept the reality .. we have to learn to accept the reality and avoid ourselves from falling in ... i just want to have my ordinary life and try not to make my world become too complicated ... hopefully i can do it ... god bless me :) <3

happy day :)

today is my happy day and i know i cant ponteng class but this is the only chance

to going out for shopping , movie , and eat with my friends .. there are nisa and xin yee ... i feel

soooo happy because can go for wash and blow at apt .. there are three of us and firstly i have make the person give us rm28 for let us wash and blow and after that can have a leng zai for me to wash and blow hahaah ... soo syok can release all my stress out after finish wash and blow nice

.. then go for another trip with xin yee and nisa by having our lunch in cafe ..

now only i realize that in this world there are no guy that can believe and there are only friends can believe and i will promise to myself from now onwards wont believe to any guys anymore ... there are only have a hurt and tears .. anyway just forget it and try to be happy all the time like today .... after have our lunch ... we go for movie Scream 4 ... is very funny but scaring ... and actually my mood is soo syok but after realize that there are a STUPID FUCKERS GUY sitting down there keep on looking up and do something that make people feel that STUPID FUCKERS GUY look like a shit is a mad perosn ... damn piss off ... and totally make my mood spoilt luckily the STUPID FUCKERS IDIOT person faster get off from the cinema .... mahai ... make my mood spoilt ... but nvm after that i ady forget it and still back to movie ... after that ahead to shopping and wan to buy alot of clothes but need to wait till i have enough money first ... ahhaha first of all i need to ta ke my car license as soon as possible and then continue with all the stuff... after back to home i ask xin yee fetch me back mcd.. and going back home feel can relax and hear to music but end up get scolding by the OLD BICTH .. totally spoilt my mood again ... diu han si ... hate it and damn it ... go to damn u the little STUPID DAMN FUCKERS GIRL la .. cibai .. then after that then only get out from here ..... ishhhh DAMN LA suppose be happy day an dall because of the fuckers OLD BICTH fault .. Damn la ...fuck off and chill... anway i enjoy before that

hate to be lonely

i just want to change to be a better of person in my life ..

y cant give me a chance to change it to become the better person in my life ..

i just need a love , protection and a better lifestyle with full of happiness..

i just need a normal life and i have a family and alot of friends but i still

feel very lonely everytime and every second of my time...maybe i dunno how to

appreciate them but i really is the type oif the girl who are dont even know how to apppreciated to other person and just do whaever i like but pls give me a chance to change it to better ...

i just hate myself to be lonely in everytime of every second of my time ... its make me crazy and .. today my friends last minutes only told me thats tml will be having a meeting but all is the last minutes problem ... how could i want to take a transport to subang and nobody can fetch me even the person i need a help toi fetch me also run away as soon as possible and i know thats not they choice too..but i really feel thats i am very lonely after realize thats today problem make me feel thats i am just a lonely girl who dunno how to express out my feeling and dont know how to live in this kind of life ... i just want to be like other person with alot of freedom and i want to change everything bad to good as well...i hate this kind of life with alot of stress and i would like to change a better to have a life without any of tension and happiness ............... i just want to be alike like other people ... y is sooo difficult for me ...

feel sick in these few days ....

this few days my sorethroat is very painful till cant talk anymore..

damn piss off and cant eat whaever i want...need to be more alert to the food and drink much water as i can...anyway i feeling very sick and very dizzy...everytime sure feel very dizzy because of lack sleep and not enough exercise and feel very stress too...

just a few days ago fight with the guy again..damn hate he la...i know he just kidding but

why must on my no mood time go to kacau people...damn he la...fucking piss off

and dulan because of thats person makes me no mood to work anymore...

anyway thats oso good for me to make me more focus ob study but when working time i scared because of he again i need to be emo...hate it la ....nothing much can say fucking hate it sooooo muchiieeeee..why got dis kind of person de...haizzzzzz

2 days is my very bad day + bad mood..pisss it off

today i feel very bad mood the whole day..is really makes me sooo bad mood with the bad

days the whole days...early in the morning the computer already spoil already makes me feel

so bad bad mood because need to do the whole report and need to search one by one carefully anot will let them scold me kao kao....damn piss off wei...fuck it off la the stupid computer and the report from my life makes me feel so tired..and never mind because its my work and i supppose to do it but early in the morning the just because of the stupid computer makes me feel so bad d but not soo bad because at least is not the computer fault but early in the morning

already makes a mistakes and giving more money to the customer..

i am really such a blur girl and its already makes me damn pisss off with it but still another problem came up....need to check the stock manually and done everythings especially others...

anyway all of thats is my responsible things to do it...now is the more serious things is today i just want to ask question thats i dunno to make it more clear but the keep on get scolded by the people so damn hate it and damn dulan of her...

i know she angry is just because she want to release her anger but if she really want to release dun la release on other person have to know how to respect other people as a collegues and cant keep on just do whatever she like mah...damn hate la somemore i already try to be patience all the time when with her but now she really make me sooo beh tahan with the wat kind of the attitude with thats...be soh cari orang marah happy then find people to gila....then before talk till finish she ady off people phone...u know wat is "MORAL"....

then somemore people ady sooo piss off faster finish my work and keep on get scolded but the stupid fuckers "BITCH GOH" come to kacau people....yesterday the stupid suckers mahai orang asing come to buat hal now come again the stupid fuckers "BITCH" which can knowns as the FUCKERS stupid ass AUTHY "DAUGHTER" AND THE mahai suckers stupid iDIOT ORANG ASING "WIFE" really so suit to pokai together la..damn benci and hate it......go to bark like a dog..yesterday the stupid orang asing with tak ada otak punya ady can go to hell la GO TO CAMPAK THE MONEY luckily din kena me kena me i let the idiot go to jail straight away.....now comeagain THE SUPER DUPER BITCH...same attitude...people ady want to give back the money then last minutes take out the cibai credit card like very rich but finally end up with the cannot process card..ahhahahahahahahah...laugh like the hell for the BITCH...

THEN after thats second time THE BITCH sengaja take out the money again for the last minutes....damn her la....make hehr pokai like a hell and jump into the jungle ..not nid to stay at the whole la..such a UNLUCKY DAY..ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHH

DUN LET ME SAW AGAIN..DAMN SUPER DUPER HATE IT

the most laughing day for me:)

today should be my happy day but i can feel tired and lazy somemore

when at the morning time i am really full of lazyness and feel very headache cause

of my sore throat suddenly feel like have something stuck at the middle of my troat..

really feel very sick and hot body then after thats get scold again really

makes me feel more piss offf and want to go home for rest but i cant ..after awhile i am feel much better or not i am sooo dulan and want to die d...feeel so suffer..

althought thats but after thats i get better and another the whole day have no customer..

only a few of my bosss customer and our sales is very low..but also is a happy days for me because i can chit chat happily with my collegues and spend a great time with them with laugh and a jokes..then after thats going back to careffour see again my another funny friends..

actually he is very ego and he is the only one i keep on want to kidding with he and makes he feel so geli and hates me when i bully he...

anyway sometimes he will say the words thats i hate it but i also feel very happy to it because i need to be patience to stop he from angry me again..i really scared thats he will stop talking to me althought he is not sooo goood..and what for i want to care what he say but i really dunwan makes he angry

the working day again

early in the morning already get scold..very bad in the mood...

but still makes me feel double bad mood again..haizzzz..damn piss it off..

i am sooo tired and feel so sleepy..everyday lack of sleeep..my life is only working, study, eat, sleep, rushing for assignment, exam, shopping, and try to how communicate with the people thats i dunno and mostly of them is the stupid idiot authy

and uncle which have scold me before and taught me before...just a few days ago meet a stupid fatty womanand old folks lady scold me just not because of my matter...go to hell la scold people without any of reason..feel so tired d still need the two old folks women face especially thesuper duper idiot old folks women talking like without any respect..pls la authy and the fatty women still complain me when i was having a customer service times..just go to HELL la both of the women....make me damn pissss it off....dulan....damn it la..if i not working sure screw back...

another idiot day..unlucky

1st day

today just have a big complain from customer..

actually is not my fault but i keep on blame by others..actually i thought thats i was working

afternoon shift but all of sudden they say is my fault because when they

ask the person in charge then they say is my fault after thats..

say i was late for around 11am makes me need to lost rm60 ringgit u noe...is rm60 abig amount which i cannot buy alot of things with it..super duper hate it..

pissssss it offf...hate it very much...just have a complain from the idiot stupid women fuckers at my another outlet then makes me keep scolding by the idiot suckers women..piss it off..

now again another problem at the same place..not only thats because of rm1000 then i only i kepp work full time to get my money but now say i lost rm60 from there...$mcmcmkj%$mxmmm...damn pisssss off..but what can i do all the people say my fault and what la thats la..

if i say another things then the pakat sure say again my fault...

damn it..all bad day for me....damnn hate it alot..

hate to be emotional all the time:(

i am feel so sad to be tooo emotional all the time..

actually i just wanna to be a normal girl without any pressure and stress and

just try to be happy with my family, lovely grandparents and my friends including all the

person aound me but i cant...everytime i sure keep on argue with my parents..

for not allowed me do that do this and anthing else thats i hate to do it..

i just cant stand my hot tempered all the time and totally hate myself till makes my family keepon argue to each other just because of me..i really really want to change my attitude but i cant do it..

anyway i have try to change alot since the day i was working at here and i was feel

have learn alot from my collegues and friends who always care for me and teach me how to learn

not tooo emotional all the time and try to avoid the bad things from side..

i havelearn how to communicate to those ppl..but i still cant control my emotional when going back home time..its totally makes me feel i am soo suck..

i just hope my family can be happy and my lovely grandparents especially my lovely grandmom will not argue with my grandpap and will have a healty body..dun worried too much about me and my studborn father..i will feel happpy and will do everythings just as my lovely grandmom will feel happy and my family and all my friends....just hope i can done it well...

lonely girl..

i not understand what am i thinking now and actually wat i want now..is makes me feel sooo lonely when the day have passs...finally i already can makes it dont want to think too much and care so much d...its makes me so tired and its makes me hate myself to be like this...i really cant understand who i am actually...

anyway i wont feel so upset de...i know i am always lonely girl and nobody wont takes me as their best friends at all....i am really worry my two best collegues will hate me and wont talk with me anymore...i damn hate it....

feel so headache and dont know want to do what to avoid myself to be unhappy...i want to have my own vacations with my friends and hope i will be happy everytime of every second of the time not matter in what situation...

feelings

i just only a little girl who are only know how to keep feelings..

i really cant understand to those people who are really know how to express they feelings out without care whether is hurt that person heart anot..i really cant understand...i am feel so bad to my ownself..anyway today i just realize that actually i just a a girl who with the childish minded..

and just only know how to act cute and cool all the time..or just pretend as a person who are keep the feelings all the time...i am really feel sooo lonely and dont know how to express out my feelings actually..i feel sooo lonely enough...i reallly dont know how to maintain my feelings now..i cant calm myself down...actually i just know how to hide my feelings and dont want to makes other ppl dissapointed..i like this job soo much but i oso a human..

how come ppl just dont care wat i am thinking and how come i just keep silent all the time when its have somethings makes me not happy..i really dont want to give other ppl a burden..

i really dont want to makes other ppl feel so unhappy when working time..

i just only can hide my feelings all the time...thats is only the way i can keep silent all the time and just pretend happy enough..

i am really sooo tired with all the arguments d...its makes me hurt enough..

i am really so faint down with all kind of this noisy and nossense around me..i just hope that everythings will be cool down and just hope everyone will happy...the way to do it..just kjeep my own as CLOWN..

imperfect..

there was no imperfect things in this world..
sure have the bad side if the person have too good looking..

today i just found it that everyone sure will have their bad before have their goods..

when i start working fromeach of the different places then only i can noe that there are imperfect things in this world such as when..the people give me a impression who are good looking from other people sights but from inside is not...

anyway i just found my real world after go around the places and having alot of trouble..

finally i get wat i want to do and what actually i want it..

sometimes will feel happy and sometimes will sad..

after big round just found thats i doesnt need everythings but i just need the friends around me..

when the days i start working at pepito hair studio..i feel very warm and wont feel any dissapointed or sad..i feel sooo happy can chit chat with them and makes a joke with them..

everytime in every minutes of second i sure feel so happy coz can saw them and i like this job tooo much..there are too many my friendly collegues and friends..is makes me want to stay with them forever and ever not matter whats is happening..

i am always lonely girl in my life..there are no best friends and best family for me...

i am lonely in everywhere i have been..but this only the places thats i can found my fun and happiness...is makes me ady enough without anythings..

i have learn sp many things in pepito hair studio and makes a real friends with them..

thats are no more stress and more boring to me..working+study is already anough d..

from there i can learn how to communicates with my people and learns how to wash and blow people hair..others than thats i can learn how to do treatment..

i feel wants to thanks sooo much to Sebastian and my beloved friends to let me learns soo many things..:)

however start with my exam in this sem 2..

i am feel so stress when having this exam...especially the stupid french which makes me feel so stress..i think i can do it very well and feel very intresting..but end up with boring..

i am sooo scared thats i need retake in this sem..

especially marketing and french..

its makes me soo worries if i retake..i will lost everythings if i need..i REALLY DONT WANT TO LOST MY JOB..:'(